Here's to 2009! I'm looking forward to becoming a better, stronger, healthier person.
Happy New Year!
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Happy New Year...
Just a quick post... I have thought of many of you today. You have made a difference in my life...your my support somedays. Your friendship makes me smile and for that I say "thanks". I look forward to reading all of your blogs and about your lifes and all it brings. Hope 2009 is a good one for you. I'm looking forward to it.
Sunday, December 28, 2008
I feel Christmas tired and a look back @ 2008...
All this Christmasing has tuckered me out. Think this morning I'll try to talk my hubby into taking me out to breakfast. Was a good holiday with Derrel's family and mine. Simple this year and it felt good. I made it through the holidays without gaining weight. Yahoo! That's always nice. I didn't have one time this past week I ate to much or ate the wrong thing and felt sick. I was good to myself. There was a time @ Derrel's family house and they were talking about weight, diets, getting heavier and such. I was standing at the sink doing dishes and for the first time in my life I was able to just keep my mouth shut. I didn't have to talk about how big my butt is getting or diets. I was able to just listen and it was freeing. I don't have to diet anymore or worry the same. I eat like I'm on a diet everyday now and that is just "normal" to me. Wow...I've come a long way baby! FREEDOM I've adjusted, leaned and I'm doing it most days and doing what I need to do for ME! And I'm lovin it. You should see my Christmas photos. I have this silly stupid smile on my face in all of them. I could not be smiling any bigger.
So...New Year's Eve is coming soon. That night I'm going to bed at a good hour as my brother will be coming into town from LA. We will be getting up early to go spend the day with him and Barb. We have 2 hour drive there and back so we'll be getting up early and not partying. Tomorrow night (Monday 29th) Derrel and I have a date for our New Years plans. Were going to our condo on the Oregon ocean on bonus time. Which means CHEAP. If they have rooms open 15 days to your arrival you can reserve one of the rooms by the night for 60 bucks. And a 3 bedroom condo with a kitchen and a jet tub in the master bedroom on the ocean front is a great price. So that's what Derrel and I are doing for New Years. ♥ I love taking baths with my husband!
I not really making any new years resolutions this year. I am going to learn to drink more water. That's the only resolution I'm making if you want to call that a resolution. I suck at drinking my water. I've already started pouring me a glass of ice water and learning to drink more. I don't drink a lot of anything so I want and need to drink water. That's just something I want to do for myself.
Here's 200
8 @ a glance for me-
January-
I started this year weighing 180 pounds and wearing size 10. I had lost 111 pounds and would of been happy if I would of never lost another pound. I felt that much better weighing 180 rather than 300 pounds. We also lost our wonderful black lab Blue Dog. I still miss that darn doggie everyday. ☹ Sad time!
So...New Year's Eve is coming soon. That night I'm going to bed at a good hour as my brother will be coming into town from LA. We will be getting up early to go spend the day with him and Barb. We have 2 hour drive there and back so we'll be getting up early and not partying. Tomorrow night (Monday 29th) Derrel and I have a date for our New Years plans. Were going to our condo on the Oregon ocean on bonus time. Which means CHEAP. If they have rooms open 15 days to your arrival you can reserve one of the rooms by the night for 60 bucks. And a 3 bedroom condo with a kitchen and a jet tub in the master bedroom on the ocean front is a great price. So that's what Derrel and I are doing for New Years. ♥ I love taking baths with my husband!
I not really making any new years resolutions this year. I am going to learn to drink more water. That's the only resolution I'm making if you want to call that a resolution. I suck at drinking my water. I've already started pouring me a glass of ice water and learning to drink more. I don't drink a lot of anything so I want and need to drink water. That's just something I want to do for myself.
Here's 200
8 @ a glance for me-January-
I started this year weighing 180 pounds and wearing size 10. I had lost 111 pounds and would of been happy if I would of never lost another pound. I felt that much better weighing 180 rather than 300 pounds. We also lost our wonderful black lab Blue Dog. I still miss that darn doggie everyday. ☹ Sad time!
February-
January and February were full of many tummy aches and stress in my life. My boss was stealing, borrowing, stealing time and lieing. I had been watching this for months and it was only getting worse. I saw many employees come and go over her bull shit and finally in Feb. I took a stand and spoke the truth to the district manager in a letter as district was in Alabama not Oregon. February 21st of 08 was one year since surgery for me. In one year I lost -124 pounds. I had nothing to wear as nothing fit. That's a good thing right? In Feb. I had someone at work tell me "your starting to get cute". I just thought the words he chose were um funny. STARTING...like I'm not quite there yet. LOL Not sure if that was his way of flirting or what he was thinking or not thinking I should say, but he did say it. I'm thinking he didn't think first.
March-
I'm 5 pounds away from my goal of 158. I'm 5'7 and 158 is the magic number I need to reach to be at a normal weight and not obese anymore. I still had not heard from district about my letter about my stealing boss. I'm wondering what the *uck, how could they not be concerned or even check out what I had said??? Mid month I showed to work on Monday and guess what? She knows of my letter to our district manager and she is PISSED! Long story short: she harasses me for days and I quit! Knowing I can't and should not have to take this harassment I quit and fight for my rights.
April-
I can't take the pain in my hip any longer. Even after losing weight I still had pain in my left hip. I am stubborn and finally go talk to my Dr. He starts me on physical therapy. April 5th I reached my goal of 158. For the first time in my life I was at a normal weight for my height. 1 year, 1 month, 12 days later. I went from 294 to weighing 157.8 -134pounds. All I can say is WOW and what a ride it was. I was able to fly with my mom to take her back to the surgeon in LA and also visit my brother. I got to go shopping in LA with Barb and fill in a lot of the clothes I didn't have anymore.
May-
I was granted unemployment by a judge over harassment from my prior job. I was forced to quit he found because of her actions. I also got a job @ the local farmers market for the 2008 season. I love working at the market. The job was hard work and had lots of lifting and moving compared to my old job earlier in the year. I found the perfect bra! Sassybax. My answer to plastic surgery. I'm in love. Hold you up and in, even the extra skin on the tummy and back. I will never buy another bra.
June-
I was contacted by my half brother for the first time in many years. I never knew while growing up I had a half brother. I got to met him after many years. My son graduated 8th grade. I now have a high schooler. Ug I bought a blood glucose meter as I was having many episodes of low blood sugar. I spoke to my Dr and he told me "you have to learn to eat every 2 hours now". I think I felt like I was doing something wrong eating all the time. It felt wrong... as if you want to lose weight prior to surgery I just starved myself. I needed to learn to eat every few hours so I don't crash with low blood sugar levels.
July-
Went with Derrel's mommy to the fireworks. Before the fireworks Derrel and I walked all over town rather than just sit in the car waiting for the show to start. Usually we get there early to hold our spot and sit there in the car. Not this year. We got off our butts and walked all over town. I'm still doing physical therapy for my hip. The PT is helping the pain. He is stretching my hip muscles but they are tight and nothing like he has ever seen in all his years. I feel great! I had a big mac attack on July 21st 2008. I did not give in and survived the attack. he he I weigh 150. I can't believe it. Amazing! My other blogger friends are all writing about protein ice cream. I too buy a cheap ice cream maker and start making protein ice cream. Mm
August-
I get a Honda! 2005. I'm in love! Wish I had the 08 but could not afford it. We were good and did not buy what we could not afford and so we bought the 2005 Honda Accord. Went to Seattle Washington for 3 days for a family vacation. Had a blast! Love Seattle! 5-6 hours away, spent a ton of money, saw family and walked all over the city. FREEDOM!
September-
I got a reminder why I had my intestines rearranged. Ate a pop tart and a brownie in the same hour and paid for it by dumping and shaking. Ug My son Jonathan was having a hard time and did something he knew better then to do. He's grounded and begs to be able to go on a 3 day field trip with his class. We say no and stand by what we have to do as parents. Hard/sad times... I'm getting very rev'ed up about the Obama campaign. If we can't have Hillary we need Obama and change in this country, I do know that for sure. Not more of the same. I discover TJ Maxx department store. OMG Susy ♥loves♥ this store! I get my first really bad cold since surgery. Holly snot batman! No ice cream, no meds and I'm sick for weeks. I also reached my lowest weight. I weighed in @ 144. 294 minus 144 = 150 pounds lost. Size 4-6pants, small shirt. Again amazing!
October-
I turn 41! Life is only getting better. I think about not blogging anymore. I'm running out of things to say. I don't want to just keep boasting about how good I feel. Do these people really want me to keep blogging/do I want to keep blogging? YES It keeps me accountable and I'd miss so many of you I've gotten to know. My hubby falls off a ladder on our property. And funny enough I was outside taking photos of the property and I snap a photo of him while he is flying through the air to the ground. He is very bruised but no broken bones. I buy a pair of Calvin Klein jeans size 4. Oh yeah! Then Halloween- I. still. hate. candy. holidays!
November-
OBAMA MAMA! YES, we did! We start to feel really broke. Gas is high, food prices sore, my job at the farmers market ends for the season and this economy needs help. Good grief the holidays are coming. I discover green tea. As the weather turns cold I'm trying to find something warm and yummy to wrap my hands around. I try many green teas and find a few I like.
December-
I have a 15 year old. How did that happen¿ My son also gets a job at the local aquarium volunteer through a internship. This will be good for his self esteem and only bring good things. I'm excited for him and pleased he is willing to give away his weekends for the aquarium. I feel broke but happy. I feel so thankful this year. A weight has been lifted off my shoulder I can't even put into words. I've maintained my weight of 146-149 for 6+ months now. Oregon is froze in and I'm stuck at home for 2 weeks and getting out of the house very little. If my hubby doesn't drive me I don't go... Derrel has a colonoscopy & a endoscopy. All is well and even his ulcers from 5 years ago are gone. He does have diverticulitis and gastritis and is trying to heal that. Christmas was mellow, fun, freeing, it was a good one!
Pretty good year overall. Up's and downs of family and life but no major surgery's or sicky's. LIFE IS GOOD!
January and February were full of many tummy aches and stress in my life. My boss was stealing, borrowing, stealing time and lieing. I had been watching this for months and it was only getting worse. I saw many employees come and go over her bull shit and finally in Feb. I took a stand and spoke the truth to the district manager in a letter as district was in Alabama not Oregon. February 21st of 08 was one year since surgery for me. In one year I lost -124 pounds. I had nothing to wear as nothing fit. That's a good thing right? In Feb. I had someone at work tell me "your starting to get cute". I just thought the words he chose were um funny. STARTING...like I'm not quite there yet. LOL Not sure if that was his way of flirting or what he was thinking or not thinking I should say, but he did say it. I'm thinking he didn't think first.
March-
I'm 5 pounds away from my goal of 158. I'm 5'7 and 158 is the magic number I need to reach to be at a normal weight and not obese anymore. I still had not heard from district about my letter about my stealing boss. I'm wondering what the *uck, how could they not be concerned or even check out what I had said??? Mid month I showed to work on Monday and guess what? She knows of my letter to our district manager and she is PISSED! Long story short: she harasses me for days and I quit! Knowing I can't and should not have to take this harassment I quit and fight for my rights.
April-
I can't take the pain in my hip any longer. Even after losing weight I still had pain in my left hip. I am stubborn and finally go talk to my Dr. He starts me on physical therapy. April 5th I reached my goal of 158. For the first time in my life I was at a normal weight for my height. 1 year, 1 month, 12 days later. I went from 294 to weighing 157.8 -134pounds. All I can say is WOW and what a ride it was. I was able to fly with my mom to take her back to the surgeon in LA and also visit my brother. I got to go shopping in LA with Barb and fill in a lot of the clothes I didn't have anymore.
May-
I was granted unemployment by a judge over harassment from my prior job. I was forced to quit he found because of her actions. I also got a job @ the local farmers market for the 2008 season. I love working at the market. The job was hard work and had lots of lifting and moving compared to my old job earlier in the year. I found the perfect bra! Sassybax. My answer to plastic surgery. I'm in love. Hold you up and in, even the extra skin on the tummy and back. I will never buy another bra.
June-
I was contacted by my half brother for the first time in many years. I never knew while growing up I had a half brother. I got to met him after many years. My son graduated 8th grade. I now have a high schooler. Ug I bought a blood glucose meter as I was having many episodes of low blood sugar. I spoke to my Dr and he told me "you have to learn to eat every 2 hours now". I think I felt like I was doing something wrong eating all the time. It felt wrong... as if you want to lose weight prior to surgery I just starved myself. I needed to learn to eat every few hours so I don't crash with low blood sugar levels.
July-
Went with Derrel's mommy to the fireworks. Before the fireworks Derrel and I walked all over town rather than just sit in the car waiting for the show to start. Usually we get there early to hold our spot and sit there in the car. Not this year. We got off our butts and walked all over town. I'm still doing physical therapy for my hip. The PT is helping the pain. He is stretching my hip muscles but they are tight and nothing like he has ever seen in all his years. I feel great! I had a big mac attack on July 21st 2008. I did not give in and survived the attack. he he I weigh 150. I can't believe it. Amazing! My other blogger friends are all writing about protein ice cream. I too buy a cheap ice cream maker and start making protein ice cream. Mm
August-
I get a Honda! 2005. I'm in love! Wish I had the 08 but could not afford it. We were good and did not buy what we could not afford and so we bought the 2005 Honda Accord. Went to Seattle Washington for 3 days for a family vacation. Had a blast! Love Seattle! 5-6 hours away, spent a ton of money, saw family and walked all over the city. FREEDOM!
September-
I got a reminder why I had my intestines rearranged. Ate a pop tart and a brownie in the same hour and paid for it by dumping and shaking. Ug My son Jonathan was having a hard time and did something he knew better then to do. He's grounded and begs to be able to go on a 3 day field trip with his class. We say no and stand by what we have to do as parents. Hard/sad times... I'm getting very rev'ed up about the Obama campaign. If we can't have Hillary we need Obama and change in this country, I do know that for sure. Not more of the same. I discover TJ Maxx department store. OMG Susy ♥loves♥ this store! I get my first really bad cold since surgery. Holly snot batman! No ice cream, no meds and I'm sick for weeks. I also reached my lowest weight. I weighed in @ 144. 294 minus 144 = 150 pounds lost. Size 4-6pants, small shirt. Again amazing!
October-
I turn 41! Life is only getting better. I think about not blogging anymore. I'm running out of things to say. I don't want to just keep boasting about how good I feel. Do these people really want me to keep blogging/do I want to keep blogging? YES It keeps me accountable and I'd miss so many of you I've gotten to know. My hubby falls off a ladder on our property. And funny enough I was outside taking photos of the property and I snap a photo of him while he is flying through the air to the ground. He is very bruised but no broken bones. I buy a pair of Calvin Klein jeans size 4. Oh yeah! Then Halloween- I. still. hate. candy. holidays!
November-
OBAMA MAMA! YES, we did! We start to feel really broke. Gas is high, food prices sore, my job at the farmers market ends for the season and this economy needs help. Good grief the holidays are coming. I discover green tea. As the weather turns cold I'm trying to find something warm and yummy to wrap my hands around. I try many green teas and find a few I like.
December-
I have a 15 year old. How did that happen¿ My son also gets a job at the local aquarium volunteer through a internship. This will be good for his self esteem and only bring good things. I'm excited for him and pleased he is willing to give away his weekends for the aquarium. I feel broke but happy. I feel so thankful this year. A weight has been lifted off my shoulder I can't even put into words. I've maintained my weight of 146-149 for 6+ months now. Oregon is froze in and I'm stuck at home for 2 weeks and getting out of the house very little. If my hubby doesn't drive me I don't go... Derrel has a colonoscopy & a endoscopy. All is well and even his ulcers from 5 years ago are gone. He does have diverticulitis and gastritis and is trying to heal that. Christmas was mellow, fun, freeing, it was a good one!
Pretty good year overall. Up's and downs of family and life but no major surgery's or sicky's. LIFE IS GOOD!
Here's to 2009!
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Christmas eve...
I cooked most of the day yesterday. I'm kind of tired of cooking already. Yesterday I baked a pumpkin pie, boiled eggs as I'm making deviled eggs. I made two lasagnas. One vegetarian and one with meat. We have both kinds in Derrel's family so I thought I'd accommodate those non meat eaters. But this was my first attempt at a vegetarian meal. Turned out pretty good too. I used spinach and lots of mushrooms. Tonight we are getting together with Derrel's side of the family. Were all going over to grammy's house. Derrel and I are heading over there about noon and helping her get things together. Niece, nephews, brothers, sisters and all will just be stopping in through out the day. And by evening there should be a good size crowd there. It's just kind of a pot luck/crap food fest all day and tonight. Little of this and a lot of that... Derrel made tons of banana bread for everyone and a few cookies. I made about 10 pounds of lasagna. I thought if I made lasagna there would be some sort of food on the table besides cookies and sugar. LOL I made the lasagnas so you could serve them with a spoon rather than slices. I'm putting them in two crocks to keep them warm all day. To be safe I am taking me a 1/2 of ham sandwich with swiss and carrots to have something healthy to eat as were going to be at mom's house all day today. Should be a busy day.
Christmas day were staying home! Home sweet home! Were making a turkey, sweet potato's, mashed potato's, stuffing and all the goodies. I'm sure watching movies and just hang out. Sounds nice. Susy is hoping for a ring I hinted for☺ . I'm hoping that baby is under my tree.
Friday we are going to Salem to my mom's house and spending the night there with her. That will be nice. I also get to see my long lost brother Ron. It's a new found brother and I'm happy I get to spend sometime with him in a couple of days. It's always a good visit when I get to spend time with my step mom Carolyn. She is the sweetest woman. Even after losing my dad years ago she always loved me like her own kids and I feel the same about her. We both loved my sweet dad and that has brought us together and made us a family.
So have a good one my friends and I will blog and add photos soon. I'M OFF!
What ever you say... Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays, Happy Hanukkah to you...
P.S. This is my first skinny Christmas ever! I'm pretty excited! Still feels like I'm dreaming sometimes. I feel so thankful and happy!
Christmas day were staying home! Home sweet home! Were making a turkey, sweet potato's, mashed potato's, stuffing and all the goodies. I'm sure watching movies and just hang out. Sounds nice. Susy is hoping for a ring I hinted for☺ . I'm hoping that baby is under my tree.
Friday we are going to Salem to my mom's house and spending the night there with her. That will be nice. I also get to see my long lost brother Ron. It's a new found brother and I'm happy I get to spend sometime with him in a couple of days. It's always a good visit when I get to spend time with my step mom Carolyn. She is the sweetest woman. Even after losing my dad years ago she always loved me like her own kids and I feel the same about her. We both loved my sweet dad and that has brought us together and made us a family.
So have a good one my friends and I will blog and add photos soon. I'M OFF!
What ever you say... Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays, Happy Hanukkah to you...
just Be happy!
P.S. This is my first skinny Christmas ever! I'm pretty excited! Still feels like I'm dreaming sometimes. I feel so thankful and happy!
Monday, December 22, 2008
Crazy Weather and Breakfast time...
Well...I did get out of the house yesterday as here @ the beach the snow melted and turned to rain this weekend. I woke this morning and ☃ it's back ☃! The trees and yard are white again. The snow in Oregon has broke a 40 year record this year. Oregon is a wonderful state. We have the mountains, ocean beaches, hills, trees, forests. But usually if you want to get to the snow you just head up to the mountains and go to it. We rarely get a snow day and if we do it's a day or three. So this is all very strange for us Oregonians. I like to look at it but hate how cold it is. And since we don't get snow often they don't remove it from the roads well because we don't have the equipment and then were stuck in at home. Anyway I feel bad for all the people stuck at the Portland airport. It's a big mess up there in the city. The airport is shut and all those people wanting to just get home. It's not letting up anytime soon either.
I was able to get out yesterday and shop with my boy for dad. Jonathan and I got up early and headed into town before it got busy. We had a good time being silly☺. I raced him up the steps at the store and we also raced back to the car to see who could win. I did not win. I was trying to hold him back so I could win and he thought that was funny. We came home to get dad and we went to the movies to see "the day the earth stood still". I liked it but hated the ending. The ending just let me down. Hate that! Derrel made cookies for the family after we came home. I only ate 2! Just not worth it. Cookies and shit make me feel like shit unless I just eat half at a time and that's what I did yesterday. I put 6 cookies in baggies and in the freezer for me for a treat in the next few weeks.
I just learned I get to see my brother Scott and sister in law Barb on the 1st of January
. There coming for a visit from Pasadena CA for his birthday. I'm so excited to see both of them. Time for another skinny picture of us all. We have all had weight loss surgery and between the 3 of us we weigh 400+ pounds less. Barb is one of those people you just can't help loving. She's my sister in law but I love her like a best friend. We have already planned to sneak off to Starbucks and have Barb and Susy time. (Barb's blog: http://barbswls.blogspot.com/) I can't wait!
Another thing I really want to ask other bloggers about is breakfast. Breakfast for me 1/2 of the time is a sucky meal for me. Not sure if it's cause I have a empty stomach or why. Every morning I start my day with my OJ protein yogurt drink and always do fine with that. After sometime and being up I get hungry. I do oatmeal, egg whites, bananas, protein bars and sometimes cereal. But every time I do a bowl cereal and soy milk I end up feeling nauseous and getting sick. What's up with that? There is no milk in soy so why do I end up throwing up? That happens every time I eat cereal so I don't eat cereal anymore but every once in awhile I try again. I do miss a quick bowl of cereal and being done with breakfast. Even if I do eggs, egg whites, oats, fruit or what ever else for breakfast I feel blucky more
than half the time right after. It passes after 30 minutes but 7 out of 10 times I feel nauseous right after. Yesterday trying to get out of the house early I did cereal again. I had to lay back down for 20 after ralphing up bile from the bowl of cereal. I just don't understand why breakfast is such a hard meal for me most days. Anyone else have trouble with breakfast?
I'm not really saying anything here..... just blabbing and blogging. LOL Hope everyone is happy and healthy and with the one's you love this week.
I was able to get out yesterday and shop with my boy for dad. Jonathan and I got up early and headed into town before it got busy. We had a good time being silly☺. I raced him up the steps at the store and we also raced back to the car to see who could win. I did not win. I was trying to hold him back so I could win and he thought that was funny. We came home to get dad and we went to the movies to see "the day the earth stood still". I liked it but hated the ending. The ending just let me down. Hate that! Derrel made cookies for the family after we came home. I only ate 2! Just not worth it. Cookies and shit make me feel like shit unless I just eat half at a time and that's what I did yesterday. I put 6 cookies in baggies and in the freezer for me for a treat in the next few weeks.
I just learned I get to see my brother Scott and sister in law Barb on the 1st of January
. There coming for a visit from Pasadena CA for his birthday. I'm so excited to see both of them. Time for another skinny picture of us all. We have all had weight loss surgery and between the 3 of us we weigh 400+ pounds less. Barb is one of those people you just can't help loving. She's my sister in law but I love her like a best friend. We have already planned to sneak off to Starbucks and have Barb and Susy time. (Barb's blog: http://barbswls.blogspot.com/) I can't wait!Another thing I really want to ask other bloggers about is breakfast. Breakfast for me 1/2 of the time is a sucky meal for me. Not sure if it's cause I have a empty stomach or why. Every morning I start my day with my OJ protein yogurt drink and always do fine with that. After sometime and being up I get hungry. I do oatmeal, egg whites, bananas, protein bars and sometimes cereal. But every time I do a bowl cereal and soy milk I end up feeling nauseous and getting sick. What's up with that? There is no milk in soy so why do I end up throwing up? That happens every time I eat cereal so I don't eat cereal anymore but every once in awhile I try again. I do miss a quick bowl of cereal and being done with breakfast. Even if I do eggs, egg whites, oats, fruit or what ever else for breakfast I feel blucky more
than half the time right after. It passes after 30 minutes but 7 out of 10 times I feel nauseous right after. Yesterday trying to get out of the house early I did cereal again. I had to lay back down for 20 after ralphing up bile from the bowl of cereal. I just don't understand why breakfast is such a hard meal for me most days. Anyone else have trouble with breakfast?I'm not really saying anything here..... just blabbing and blogging. LOL Hope everyone is happy and healthy and with the one's you love this week.
HAPPY HOLIDAYS!
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Froze solid in Oregon
Here @ the ocean it rarely snow's and if it does it's quick and pain less and gone shortly. Not this time. The bit of snow we got has froze solid. The pictures here are from the 2nd day and this is way better than Monday. Schools here are working on there 3rd snow day and there is more snow and freezing rain on the way. I'm thinking the boy is home for winter break until January 5th. Ug We went out today because Derrel drove us (skated) to town. Not a good idea. It's a sheet of ice on the hwy and the side roads are worse. I had a dentist appointment and we were not out long. After being on those roads I was ready to be back at home with my slippers on. The trouble is around here we don't get this kind of weather and when we do it paralyzes us as we don't have the equipment handy and ready to clear the roads. Most folks don't have chains unless there heading to the Oregon mountains as you never need your snow chains at the Oregon beach (your umbrella yes, chains no). Stuck at home a week before Christmas. My list for Christmas is still a mile long and there is no site in the next week with temperatures above freezing. And I DON'T drive on snow or ice....NO WAY I figure with 2 or 3 snow days a year I don't have to learn to drive on ice and it scares me anyway.
Burr. Usually if I want snow here in Oregon I go find it in the mountains.
? Snow at the beach?...too cold!
Burr. Usually if I want snow here in Oregon I go find it in the mountains.
? Snow at the beach?...too cold!
Monday, December 15, 2008
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Lisa Said...Susy said...
My friend Lisa asked me a few questions today so I thought I'd just answer here.
http://lisalostandfound.blogspot.com/
Lisa said- What kind of green tea do you drink now? Tell me about the one from Starbucks, what does it have in it and is it hot or cold? What does it taste like?
Susy said- Starbucks...Yummy! My new addiction! Lately I've been indulging in Starbucks Green Tea Frappuccino. Sometimes tall and sometimes Venti, minus whip. There sweet, milk shake like and yummy. Just skip the whip cream an
d save up to a 100 plus calories. Green tea lightly sweetened with a hint of melon and milk, blended powder with ice and blended. Takes me forever to drink and the sugars in this have never bothered me. Maybe cause it lasts me hours.
Tall Green Tea Frappuccino 120z
Calories 290
Total Fat (g) 2
Cholesterol (mg) 5
Sodium (mg) 230
Total Carbohydrates (g) 60
Fiber (g) 1
Sugars (g) 51
Protein (g) 9
Vitamin A 6%
Vitamin C 8%
Calcium 30%
Iron 2%
Caffeine (mg) 50
SNACK
1 protein ball with 1/2 cup of acid free coffee
LUNCH
1/2 (6 inch) ham and turkey sub from Subway. Lettuce and tomato's only. I still tear off the top half of the bread. So I'm really eating a open faced 6 inch Subway sandwich. I love there salads there too and I usually can't finish there salad but I can put a hell of a dent in salads.
http://lisalostandfound.blogspot.com/
Lisa said- What kind of green tea do you drink now? Tell me about the one from Starbucks, what does it have in it and is it hot or cold? What does it taste like?
Susy said- Starbucks...Yummy! My new addiction! Lately I've been indulging in Starbucks Green Tea Frappuccino. Sometimes tall and sometimes Venti, minus whip. There sweet, milk shake like and yummy. Just skip the whip cream an
d save up to a 100 plus calories. Green tea lightly sweetened with a hint of melon and milk, blended powder with ice and blended. Takes me forever to drink and the sugars in this have never bothered me. Maybe cause it lasts me hours.Tall Green Tea Frappuccino 120z
Calories 290
Total Fat (g) 2
Cholesterol (mg) 5
Sodium (mg) 230
Total Carbohydrates (g) 60
Fiber (g) 1
Sugars (g) 51
Protein (g) 9
Vitamin A 6%
Vitamin C 8%
Calcium 30%
Iron 2%
Caffeine (mg) 50
Starbucks also has Chai Green tea that's pretty good. At home I make a (not so sweet) hot green tea. I've been drinking Tazo Green tea tip
s. I add sweetener and it's yummy and something wonderful to wrap my hands around. Still not coffee but not bad at all.
Lisa said- What is a typical menu like for you now each day?
Susy said- If your wondering what I eat 2 years post op I will post that here today. I know I still enjoying reading what Amber, Melting mama and others eat and how things are for them after some years have past. So for that reason I will post what I ate on Wed. Each day and meal is different. What went down well yesterday might not agree so well the next meal.
BREAKFAST
6am - My OJ yogurt protein drink
8:30am- 1/2 cup of oatmeal
1/2 apple cut up with cinnamon and sweetener
s. I add sweetener and it's yummy and something wonderful to wrap my hands around. Still not coffee but not bad at all.Lisa said- What is a typical menu like for you now each day?
Susy said- If your wondering what I eat 2 years post op I will post that here today. I know I still enjoying reading what Amber, Melting mama and others eat and how things are for them after some years have past. So for that reason I will post what I ate on Wed. Each day and meal is different. What went down well yesterday might not agree so well the next meal.
BREAKFAST
6am - My OJ yogurt protein drink
8:30am- 1/2 cup of oatmeal
1/2 apple cut up with cinnamon and sweetener
SNACK
1 protein ball with 1/2 cup of acid free coffee
LUNCH
1/2 (6 inch) ham and turkey sub from Subway. Lettuce and tomato's only. I still tear off the top half of the bread. So I'm really eating a open faced 6 inch Subway sandwich. I love there salads there too and I usually can't finish there salad but I can put a hell of a dent in salads.
CANDY CANE fix through out the day. I've been eating the tiny candy canes. the ones like santa gives you when you visit him. I must eat
6 small candy canes each day till gone. LOL My chihuahua Rufus tells me to. :) He loves candy canes too so we share! And I also remember putting 2 long pretzel sticks in my mouth around 4ish.
DINNER
One burrito size soft taco. I cut off 1/3 of the tortilla. 7% lean ground beef, tomato's, cheese, sour cream. Wrap it up....eat! I did not finish it.
SNACK
big mistake. 1 strawberry pop tart. blah Bad idea. Made me feel sick. Went to bed early because of that pop tart. Too much sugar for me. I took 1/2 hour to pick at it and eat it, but blah!
My hubby loves watching me pick apart foods. I tear bread in half, pick, push and make it work for me now. I still think about the "big" picture and what is going into my mouth calorie wise. I really believe I can never look away again. What that means to me is not to turn away from the scale and to pay attention to what is going into my mouth...FOREVER, not just today but forever. I'm never going to tell myself again the dryer is shrinking my pants. You know...face the truth, be real. Work this tool that I have been given the best I can- without REGRET! I'm not perfect but I want so bad not to disappointed myself through this journey and my life. Enough sadness, it's time for happiness and real smiles in my life. And that I have found!
There you go Lisa! Anytime, anything for you! I do that again soon for you all.
One burrito size soft taco. I cut off 1/3 of the tortilla. 7% lean ground beef, tomato's, cheese, sour cream. Wrap it up....eat! I did not finish it.
SNACK
big mistake. 1 strawberry pop tart. blah Bad idea. Made me feel sick. Went to bed early because of that pop tart. Too much sugar for me. I took 1/2 hour to pick at it and eat it, but blah!
My hubby loves watching me pick apart foods. I tear bread in half, pick, push and make it work for me now. I still think about the "big" picture and what is going into my mouth calorie wise. I really believe I can never look away again. What that means to me is not to turn away from the scale and to pay attention to what is going into my mouth...FOREVER, not just today but forever. I'm never going to tell myself again the dryer is shrinking my pants. You know...face the truth, be real. Work this tool that I have been given the best I can- without REGRET! I'm not perfect but I want so bad not to disappointed myself through this journey and my life. Enough sadness, it's time for happiness and real smiles in my life. And that I have found!
There you go Lisa! Anytime, anything for you! I do that again soon for you all.
STARBUCKS NUTRITION calculator
And have you ever wondered what your really drinking at Starbucks? With whip cream, without whip, skim, whole, soy milk. This web site lets you put your drink together and adds its up for you. Check it out!
http://www.starbucks.com/retail/nutrition_beverages.asp
And have you ever wondered what your really drinking at Starbucks? With whip cream, without whip, skim, whole, soy milk. This web site lets you put your drink together and adds its up for you. Check it out!
http://www.starbucks.com/retail/nutrition_beverages.asp
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Checking in...
Not too much going on... Seems everyday there is something to do. Go, go, go... Today I hope I am staying home and catching up on the laundry, floors and toilets. Eww fun stuff huh!
Hey I've got some great news about my 15 year old son. He applied for a volunteer internship at our local aquarium awhile back. He had to get 2 reference letters from peers, fill out the application and he had his interview on the 1st. The aquarium called
yesterday and he got the job. I'm so excited for him! He is going to be a interpreter in one of the many exhibits they have 8 hours each week. I just think this is a good thing for his self esteem and can only lead to better things. He is going through a hard time some days with anger, self esteem and just being a 15 year old. We can see he needs something to be proud of in himself. And some days I struggle with my own self esteem so I just want him to know we all have struggles and have to be happy for what is really important in life. We are trying really hard to lead him on the right path. I know that part of having good self esteem comes from your accomplishments in life and being proud of yourself. So I am happy this is happening for him. He loves science and even wants to work with the seals, sharks and such. Never know he may change is mind and want to be a marine scientist? This is a stepping stone for him and a great learning experience.
So that's it for today... off to clean!
Hey I've got some great news about my 15 year old son. He applied for a volunteer internship at our local aquarium awhile back. He had to get 2 reference letters from peers, fill out the application and he had his interview on the 1st. The aquarium called
yesterday and he got the job. I'm so excited for him! He is going to be a interpreter in one of the many exhibits they have 8 hours each week. I just think this is a good thing for his self esteem and can only lead to better things. He is going through a hard time some days with anger, self esteem and just being a 15 year old. We can see he needs something to be proud of in himself. And some days I struggle with my own self esteem so I just want him to know we all have struggles and have to be happy for what is really important in life. We are trying really hard to lead him on the right path. I know that part of having good self esteem comes from your accomplishments in life and being proud of yourself. So I am happy this is happening for him. He loves science and even wants to work with the seals, sharks and such. Never know he may change is mind and want to be a marine scientist? This is a stepping stone for him and a great learning experience. So that's it for today... off to clean!
Sunday, December 7, 2008
I should of stayed in bed this morning...
First today we had plans to go out to breakfast. The last few Sunday's we have gone out for breakfast and it's been kind of nice for us, I'm enjoying it. Anyway, Jonathan was grumpy, tired, fried, whatever from basketball and all his games. So the morning ended up becoming a yelling match (and I hate that) so I just sent him back to his room for the day and he can just talk to the walls and sleep it off. I had to remind him that when he acts like a 2 year old we don't have to leave we can just stay home. And that we did. I made us breakfast after the dust settled some. So we got through that, he apologised and we talked. 
Later in the afternoon we went and visited Derrel's sweet mommy. While at grammy's house today I saw a nephew I hadn't seen in sometime. He had nice words for me today. NOT
He told me- "wow, your looking CRACK skinny". What the f*c*. I think he could of just kept his mouth shut and said nothing at all. I don't get it either as he is not a light weight himself and struggles with weight too. It really hurt my feelings, but I'm one of the most soft hearted souls you'll ever meet. So I know I may be hurt for no reason because I am so soft hearted. But why do people have to bring you down rather than just say something nice. I understand people are not used to seeing me anything but FAT but jeez. What is wrong with people???????? GRR
So this evening I just keep hearing that in my head over and over and it's made me sad.
I'M GOING BACK TO BED!
Later in the afternoon we went and visited Derrel's sweet mommy. While at grammy's house today I saw a nephew I hadn't seen in sometime. He had nice words for me today. NOT
He told me- "wow, your looking CRACK skinny". What the f*c*. I think he could of just kept his mouth shut and said nothing at all. I don't get it either as he is not a light weight himself and struggles with weight too. It really hurt my feelings, but I'm one of the most soft hearted souls you'll ever meet. So I know I may be hurt for no reason because I am so soft hearted. But why do people have to bring you down rather than just say something nice. I understand people are not used to seeing me anything but FAT but jeez. What is wrong with people???????? GRR
So this evening I just keep hearing that in my head over and over and it's made me sad.
I'M GOING BACK TO BED!
good night!
Friday, December 5, 2008
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Feeling Thankful
I found myself the other day at the grocery store and in the back ground they were playing Christmas music. I just felt like skipping through the isles. It was silly but I feel happy, thankful and I can't even put it in to words. I was on my way to Starbucks to have a blended green tea so that could of been why I was so happy. he he Anyway, were more broke now that we ever have been, I'm not working, and this Christmas were not buying shit we don't need. And even as broke as we are I feel so full of joy some days and sometimes. I'm not stared at anymore, I don't feel looked down on, I'm not in pain. My life is so different and it's freeing in a way. Guess that's why sometimes I get this panicky feeling when thinking about gaining weight back. I can't go back, I can't let myself down. This has lifted something big off my shoulders, more than I ever understood. I can never forget what it was like for me when I was obese.
I am finding things for us to do this season that don't cost us a lot of money but together as a family we can make some memories. This Saturday evening were going back to the local aquarium for there festival of lights. The cost? 2 cans of food each. Well take a long ride in the car looking at lights one night. It's the little things...I have to show Jonathan that we can still have a great holiday without all the things that stress me out anyway. Finding the extra money each year stresses me out. I'm not letting it this year.
So I don't care if were broke- My life today is nothing I've ever felt. I didn't realize how much my weight really got in my way of living but I'm understanding it today. So I'm spending this holiday season with a smile.
HAPPY HOLIDAYS
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
fixing a oops...
Amber left me a comment about she's going to try making the protein ball recipe I added here on November 2nd. And then I remembered I wanted to post and let people know I messed up and added to much honey with a typo but I had not done it yet. So here I am now. Note when I posted that a few weeks ago I found a typo later in my blog. I went back later and fixed it. Right now it's the correct recipe but on the original post I put 1/2 cup of honey and it was to read 1/4 of a cup. 1/2 cup is too much honey and they will never be stiff enough for you to form them into balls. So if a few weeks ago you cut and copied my no bake protein ball recipe- just know it could be wrong.
So Amber I hope your protein balls turn out. I luv them! Hubby just asked me when I was making more. He likes to eat one with a banana. I just love them cause they taste like peanut butter and I love oats. Amber, you asked about job hunting...OOO Job hunting... Hmm still looking and hoping. Can't wait to go back to work retail skinny though. Should be different and interesting and I want to see the changes in people now vs me fat. It will probably piss me off I'm sure. Just since Halloween have I no longer been doing the farmers market anymore as there over. But still getting unemployment benefits from the harassment I got from my old job when I turned in my boss for theft a few months back. Man I'm still tore up about all that mess and her lies. But I know I did the right thing. But thanks to her harassment for my whistle blowing they thankfully gave me unemployment.
But YES I need a job! And I hate the looking part. But now is not the best of times to be looking for a job. Your lucky to have one if you've got one.
No Bake Protein Balls
1 cup of oatmeal
1 cup of chocolate protein powder
1 cup of peanut butter
1/4 cup of honey
1 cup of oatmeal
1 cup of chocolate protein powder
1 cup of peanut butter
1/4 cup of honey
Warm up the PB so it's runny and easier to manage, add in the ingredients and mix together and form into balls. *(if the mix is to dry add a bit more honey until you can form them.)
So Amber I hope your protein balls turn out. I luv them! Hubby just asked me when I was making more. He likes to eat one with a banana. I just love them cause they taste like peanut butter and I love oats. Amber, you asked about job hunting...OOO Job hunting... Hmm still looking and hoping. Can't wait to go back to work retail skinny though. Should be different and interesting and I want to see the changes in people now vs me fat. It will probably piss me off I'm sure. Just since Halloween have I no longer been doing the farmers market anymore as there over. But still getting unemployment benefits from the harassment I got from my old job when I turned in my boss for theft a few months back. Man I'm still tore up about all that mess and her lies. But I know I did the right thing. But thanks to her harassment for my whistle blowing they thankfully gave me unemployment.
But YES I need a job! And I hate the looking part. But now is not the best of times to be looking for a job. Your lucky to have one if you've got one.
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