Sunday, December 28, 2008

I feel Christmas tired and a look back @ 2008...

All this Christmasing has tuckered me out. Think this morning I'll try to talk my hubby into taking me out to breakfast. Was a good holiday with Derrel's family and mine. Simple this year and it felt good. I made it through the holidays without gaining weight. Yahoo! That's always nice. I didn't have one time this past week I ate to much or ate the wrong thing and felt sick. I was good to myself. There was a time @ Derrel's family house and they were talking about weight, diets, getting heavier and such. I was standing at the sink doing dishes and for the first time in my life I was able to just keep my mouth shut. I didn't have to talk about how big my butt is getting or diets. I was able to just listen and it was freeing. I don't have to diet anymore or worry the same. I eat like I'm on a diet everyday now and that is just "normal" to me. Wow...I've come a long way baby! FREEDOM I've adjusted, leaned and I'm doing it most days and doing what I need to do for ME! And I'm lovin it. You should see my Christmas photos. I have this silly stupid smile on my face in all of them. I could not be smiling any bigger.

So...New Year's Eve is coming soon. That night I'm going to bed at a good hour as my brother will be coming into town from LA. We will be getting up early to go spend the day with him and Barb. We have 2 hour drive there and back so we'll be getting up early and not partying. Tomorrow night (Monday 29th) Derrel and I have a date for our New Years plans. Were going to our condo on the Oregon ocean on bonus time. Which means CHEAP. If they have rooms open 15 days to your arrival you can reserve one of the rooms by the night for 60 bucks. And a 3 bedroom condo with a kitchen and a jet tub in the master bedroom on the ocean front is a great price. So that's what Derrel and I are doing for New Years. ♥ I love taking baths with my husband!

I not really making any new years resolutions this year. I am going to learn to drink more water. That's the only resolution I'm making if you want to call that a resolution. I suck at drinking my water. I've already started pouring me a glass of ice water and learning to drink more. I don't drink a lot of anything so I want and need to drink water. That's just something I want to do for myself.

Here's 2008 @ a glance for me-





January-
I started this year weighing 180 pounds and wearing size 10. I had lost 111 pounds and would of been happy if I would of never lost another pound. I felt that much better weighing 180 rather than 300 pounds. We also lost our wonderful black lab Blue Dog. I still miss that darn doggie everyday. ☹ Sad time!

February-
January and February were full of many tummy aches and stress in my life. My boss was stealing, borrowing, stealing time and lieing. I had been watching this for months and it was only getting worse. I saw many employees come and go over her bull shit and finally in Feb. I took a stand and spoke the truth to the district manager in a letter as district was in Alabama not Oregon. February 21st of 08 was one year since surgery for me. In one year I lost -124 pounds. I had nothing to wear as nothing fit. That's a good thing right? In Feb. I had someone at work tell me "your starting to get cute". I just thought the words he chose were um funny. STARTING...like I'm not quite there yet. LOL Not sure if that was his way of flirting or what he was thinking or not thinking I should say, but he did say it. I'm thinking he didn't think first.

March-
I'm 5 pounds away from my goal of 158. I'm 5'7 and 158 is the magic number I need to reach to be at a normal weight and not obese anymore. I still had not heard from district about my letter about my stealing boss. I'm wondering what the *uck, how could they not be concerned or even check out what I had said??? Mid month I showed to work on Monday and guess what? She knows of my letter to our district manager and she is PISSED! Long story short: she harasses me for days and I quit! Knowing I can't and should not have to take this harassment I quit and fight for my rights.

April-
I can't take the pain in my hip any longer. Even after losing weight I still had pain in my left hip. I am stubborn and finally go talk to my Dr. He starts me on physical therapy. April 5th I reached my goal of 158. For the first time in my life I was at a normal weight for my height. 1 year, 1 month, 12 days later. I went from 294 to weighing 157.8 -134pounds. All I can say is WOW and what a ride it was. I was able to fly with my mom to take her back to the surgeon in LA and also visit my brother. I got to go shopping in LA with Barb and fill in a lot of the clothes I didn't have anymore.

May-
I was granted unemployment by a judge over harassment from my prior job. I was forced to quit he found because of her actions. I also got a job @ the local farmers market for the 2008 season. I love working at the market. The job was hard work and had lots of lifting and moving compared to my old job earlier in the year. I found the perfect bra! Sassybax. My answer to plastic surgery. I'm in love. Hold you up and in, even the extra skin on the tummy and back. I will never buy another bra.

June-
I was contacted by my half brother for the first time in many years. I never knew while growing up I had a half brother. I got to met him after many years. My son graduated 8th grade. I now have a high schooler. Ug I bought a blood glucose meter as I was having many episodes of low blood sugar. I spoke to my Dr and he told me "you have to learn to eat every 2 hours now". I think I felt like I was doing something wrong eating all the time. It felt wrong... as if you want to lose weight prior to surgery I just starved myself. I needed to learn to eat every few hours so I don't crash with low blood sugar levels.

July-
Went with Derrel's mommy to the fireworks. Before the fireworks Derrel and I walked all over town rather than just sit in the car waiting for the show to start. Usually we get there early to hold our spot and sit there in the car. Not this year. We got off our butts and walked all over town. I'm still doing physical therapy for my hip. The PT is helping the pain. He is stretching my hip muscles but they are tight and nothing like he has ever seen in all his years. I feel great! I had a big mac attack on July 21st 2008. I did not give in and survived the attack. he he I weigh 150. I can't believe it. Amazing! My other blogger friends are all writing about protein ice cream. I too buy a cheap ice cream maker and start making protein ice cream. Mm

August-
I get a Honda! 2005. I'm in love! Wish I had the 08 but could not afford it. We were good and did not buy what we could not afford and so we bought the 2005 Honda Accord. Went to Seattle Washington for 3 days for a family vacation. Had a blast! Love Seattle! 5-6 hours away, spent a ton of money, saw family and walked all over the city. FREEDOM!

September-
I got a reminder why I had my intestines rearranged. Ate a pop tart and a brownie in the same hour and paid for it by dumping and shaking. Ug My son Jonathan was having a hard time and did something he knew better then to do. He's grounded and begs to be able to go on a 3 day field trip with his class. We say no and stand by what we have to do as parents. Hard/sad times... I'm getting very rev'ed up about the Obama campaign. If we can't have Hillary we need Obama and change in this country, I do know that for sure. Not more of the same. I discover TJ Maxx department store. OMG Susy ♥loves♥ this store! I get my first really bad cold since surgery. Holly snot batman! No ice cream, no meds and I'm sick for weeks. I also reached my lowest weight. I weighed in @ 144. 294 minus 144 = 150 pounds lost. Size 4-6pants, small shirt. Again amazing!

October-
I turn 41! Life is only getting better. I think about not blogging anymore. I'm running out of things to say. I don't want to just keep boasting about how good I feel. Do these people really want me to keep blogging/do I want to keep blogging? YES It keeps me accountable and I'd miss so many of you I've gotten to know. My hubby falls off a ladder on our property. And funny enough I was outside taking photos of the property and I snap a photo of him while he is flying through the air to the ground. He is very bruised but no broken bones. I buy a pair of Calvin Klein jeans size 4. Oh yeah! Then Halloween- I. still. hate. candy. holidays!

November-
OBAMA MAMA! YES, we did! We start to feel really broke. Gas is high, food prices sore, my job at the farmers market ends for the season and this economy needs help. Good grief the holidays are coming. I discover green tea. As the weather turns cold I'm trying to find something warm and yummy to wrap my hands around. I try many green teas and find a few I like.

December-
I have a 15 year old. How did that happen¿ My son also gets a job at the local aquarium volunteer through a internship. This will be good for his self esteem and only bring good things. I'm excited for him and pleased he is willing to give away his weekends for the aquarium. I feel broke but happy. I feel so thankful this year. A weight has been lifted off my shoulder I can't even put into words. I've maintained my weight of 146-149 for 6+ months now. Oregon is froze in and I'm stuck at home for 2 weeks and getting out of the house very little. If my hubby doesn't drive me I don't go... Derrel has a colonoscopy & a endoscopy. All is well and even his ulcers from 5 years ago are gone. He does have diverticulitis and gastritis and is trying to heal that. Christmas was mellow, fun, freeing, it was a good one!

Pretty good year overall. Up's and downs of family and life but no major surgery's or sicky's. LIFE IS GOOD!



Here's to 2009!

4 comments:

Lisa Williams said...

Susy,

Thanks for sharing your story. It's inspirations. I'm glad you decided to continue to blog. I hope you have a happy and prosperous 2009.

Sincerely

Suzi O said...

Hey Susy! Thanks for your comments on my blog, now I'm trying to catch up on yours! I enjoyed reading through your year. It is so funny how much we have in common - even our hubby's - my husband has diverticulitus too. Make sure yours takes care of himself! Louie had a perforated colon from his back in April 2004 and almost died!!!

You look great, and I know that you are happy! I actually lost 2 lbs the day after Christmas - I don't need to lose any more! I think it was just all the activity and little eating, so I'm trying to make sure to eat enough now that things have slowed down.

Ok girl, now we have our weight under control - what's next on our list? My goal for 2009 is to turn my soap making "hobby" business into a real business.

I wish you a blessed New Year. Keep in touch!

zamy said...

Great look back at the year!
The good and bad form who we are as individuals and I praise God for both!
Here is to a wonderful 2009!

Michelle said...

Happy Holidays Susy, I have had computer problems and couldn't get on sooner!! You, like myself have had a great year, so much learning and changes, it just keeps getting better! Enjoy the rest of this year and I continue to look forward to your blog in 2009!