do your boobs hang low...

???DO YOUR BOOBS HANG LOW...???

for goodness sakes YES! The boobs are bad. I've had a terrible time finding a bra that fits me before and even more so after I lost 139 pounds. I just found the perfect bra. Wow For the first time my boobs are where they are supposed to be. I'm not kidding, it's great. I'm not falling out the front or the back, tugging, rearranging, poking, pinching, fixing. I'm just wearing my bra and it's comfortable. I'm sold!!! I'm buying another as soon as I get paid...

Check them out...
http://www.sassybax.com/underwire_bralette.php

Hello Blogger Friends...

You will have to pause (right side) my music player so you can hear this. Sorry...

IRONMAN candy...

We went to a movie today to go see Ironman. Loved it. Kept my attention the whole movie and was worth seeing on the big screen. We don't go to the movie's that often so it was fun. So we stopped at Wal mart on the way to the movie so we can sneak in our pop's and candy like we always do. Wal mart has a really good section now of sugar free candy, they got all kinds of different stuff. So I got sugar free Russell's Stovers toffee squares for myself and a small bag of sugar free twizzlers. I ate 2 small squares of toffee chocolate and 4 twizzlers during the movie. Even being sugar free it went right through me. What they call dumping. No shakes this time, no feeling weak like I have when I've ate too much sugars in the past. But right to the potty- I'd say 5 times now. Jeez. OK can anyone tell me what sugar alcohol is?? The 2 candy's had a total of 14g of sugar alcohol in it. Am I correct in thinking it's sugar substitute? I may have just learned I react to sugar substitute as well when over consumed. I had a small bowl of cereal with soy milk this morning and we headed into the early movie. 1. got a sugar free soy coffee on the way. 2. Ate 2 small pieces of sugar free candy during the movie. 3. I ate 3-4 pieces of sugar free twizzlers. I'm thinking I consumed to much fake sugar in 3 hours and my body reacted the same without the shakes, and the weak feeling. I remember learning the body process sugar substitutes the same as real sugar. The body thinks of it as the same I believe. It generally will only cause a small rise in blood glucose levels. Anyone know?? Or thoughts??? So I had not a lot of food in my body and it was early in the day and then I added to much fake sugar into it. Not a lot of quantity, a lot of sugar substitute. I didn't care about going to the movie and having or not having any candy. I just wanted my coffee with the movie. :) Not thinking I had a SF coffee in the car, at Wal mart I got me a small bag of SF candy. Good for me cause I did not eat it all but I still reacted. I don't feel deprived with just have a bit of candy now, it's so different since surgery. 2 pieces and I am full and done. Kind of freeing in a way. I love it.


I want to know what you take to the movies now for a snack? What is you favorite thing to munch on now? I want some thoughts for a good snack while at the movies. I'm thinking sneak apples from home now instead of heading into the store for candy. Old habits

What's your thoughts? This ever happened to any of you?

Anyway the movie was good! Go see it! And by the way the sugar free twizzlers are good too! :) Tastes the same.

By George I think I've learned something... LOL

I still haven't ate today except for cereal and soy milk, coffee, twizzlers. Gosh, my DR would be so proud. LOL Not a real healthy day food wise or enough food for the body. Cooking dinner now. Can you smell it. Mmm that's chicken fajitas you smell. Gotta go eat some real food...

rAiN, RaiN go AWAY...

It's raining again here in Oregon. Yes, again...We have had maybe 5 sunny days this spring and 3 of those were 90+ degree days. No spring just straight to 90. Now it's raining again and it has been soggy all week. Not much hope on the horizon either. bLaH...

I am having to sit on my couch on with ice and heat on my lower back today. I am switching between the two and will stretch here in a bit again. I am still doing physical therapy on M/W/F. I'm still stretching & being stretched and now beginning to strengthen those muscles. Now that I am strengthening my hip/back/leg muscles my lower back is spasming on me. So he worked on my lower back today at PT. Well see how my lower back will react. Let's just say that today I am feeling the effects of once weighing 340+ plus pounds. Goes to show you that just cause you get "skinny" doesn't mean life is now perfect, nothing hurts, you can run miles, climb mountains (all have to work up to those). I will have to work for the healthy/strong part of my body now, it won't just come to me. And all this work I'm doing now is all part about getting my whole life back. My surgery just gave me a fighting chance. It's up to me to ride along or not now. But jeez if my body would just work with me here. My PT said "if it was just one muscles this would be way easier". All the hip/leg/back muscles are tight, "just like a guitar string" he tells me. Just a little set back...

Sorry for the rant...It's the rain... Susy needs sunshine!

I am having a terrible time with finding one bra to fit me these days. I've shruk too size 32 C. Do you think it's easy finding that size-it's not. I was sized at Victoria Secrets at a 34 C. That's what I bought there but it too is too big on me in 6 hours or less. One I have fits if all I do is stand up straight and don't bend at the waist or "POP" out they come. LOL I keep trying to find one that fits all of me. I can't do a size B cause of my extra skin my boobs have. Has to have a wide band. blah blah blah... But worst of all is finding one that fits me "around". I'm hoping I found the right bra this time. I've ordered one off the internet from http://www.sassybax.com/ What do I have to lose, when I try them on in the store they seem to fit until I move through my day and they don't work out so well. I've also learned just because you spend a forture on a bra does not mean it will be the perfect fit either. I can't wait to maybe have a bra that really fits my pancakes. :)

Dr Rutledge talks about Protein

This is my surgeon talking about everyone jumping on the protein band wagon. Do we really need extra protein? Here is what he has to say about it. I know that my whey protein cost has gone up for sure. I buy EAS protein from Costco. In 8 months my whey protein has gone up from $26 to $36 bucks. OuCh


Like the Dr. said "it's good for the gut". I just think the health industry has gone coco with the protein habits/fix.

not the first time i've heard it...

So can anyone tell me why people find it necessary to tell you that you will gain your weight back and be heavy again someday. It's like your under a microscope and probably will be forever now that people know you have had WLS. It happened to me again today. First they tell you that you look good and then they tell you about all the folks or stars they know that have failed. I'm not dumb and I know having weight loss surgery is not the magic pill forever. Why do people think you have this unrealistic idea that "poof" everything is easy and perfect and your skinny from this day forward. Believe me it scare me too and I decide what goes into my mouth still. This surgery just put me on the same playing field as other healthy people. It gave me a chance to move and become healthy. Weighing 300 + pounds I could not move beyond a normal busy day without crashing or popping a pill to get through the rest of my day. This was about way more to me that just being skinny. MUCH MORE! I just didn't have 20 or 40 pounds to lose, I had 130 + pounds to lose. I have to keep moving and eating healthy to maintain. It's just a tool, and if in 5 years I put on 10-20 pounds so what. That is not as nearly as bad as being 300 pounds. And we know in 5 more years without surgery I was heading back to the 350 pounds like I was in my late 20's. The more heavy I got the less I could move. So what if Carnie Wilson and Al Roker has put on a few pounds, that does not make there surgery's a failure. But people sure want to tell you about that bad news. I myself have spoke and read about many others that have maintained there weight for years within 5-8 pounds of there lowest weight. We don't talk about them do we????????????

This was not the first time I've heard it and I'm sure not the last, it just made me kind of grumpy and got under my skin today.

grr

I've been under a microscope my whole life cause I was fat... I just want to live and not be judged anymore, but I'm not so sure that can happen.

not much new...

Just thought I'd blog, but don't have a lot new going on really. I love my new job! A lot of work, but I do like it. CHANGE IS GOOD! Ask me when it's raining sideways outside and see if I like it as much. LOL The working outside in the rain will suck some weekends but this weekend was wonderful and warm. Last weekend we went to the Goodwill in Eugene and I found myself a real warm jacket with a hood that I think is water proof. I got it for 8 bucks. So I do now have a warm coat for the blustery weather at the farmers market. I still ran into several people there that I had not seen in years. I just live in a small community that until sometime passes my weight loss is always going to be a topic that comes up. My weight loss is too drastic and I live in too small of a town. But it was nice running into some people I had not seen in awhile. People are amazed at how I look and the changes in me. I just can't believe how I feel. I realize how tired I was weighing 300 pounds. I don't drag my butt home and crash. I still have energy for dishes, dinner, laundry and life. I feel amazing and just want to DANCE. :)

I've been good at staying off the scale. I'm still weighing on Saturday and maybe step on it mid week. I can't let that scale control my moods. I've decided to watch and never ignore the scale again but not become obsessed with the number.

weight today- 155
pants size- 6
shirt size- smalls and a few mediums
shoe size- 9 (LOL-never changed)
wedding ring size 4 (had that sized already too)

so that's it... not a lot new but my new job at the farmers market.

reading back...

I went through and read my own blog a bit today. I was reading back on May 15th 2007. In one year I weigh a 100 pounds less than I was when I wrote on that day. I blogged about I just wanted to make a goal of 170 and how happy I would be. I did make that goal and I am happy. Now days I don't ever want to see 170 again or anything above it. I am so glad I blogged and kept some kind of journal when I read back. I remember... some good, some bad... Lots of feelings, emotions, head games, joys, exciting days. And because I kept it open for others that I didn't know I was totally honest with my feelings.

Now it's time to live and try all those things I wrote about a few weeks ago (my gotta to do list). I'm am printing off that list I wrote and marking them off and taking a chance.

I'm am thankful...

silly little things...

Just had one of those moments the other day that I realized I was not fat anymore. LOL It impressed me that much that I had to share this silly little Ta Da moment.

We were outside planting flowers last week. Were going to sit down and have a pop cycle. Derrel offered me a 5 gallon bucket to sit down on. "Nope" I thought to myself. "Can't sit there all break it". Duh...so I sat down- and my ASS fit on the 5 gallon bucket. AMAZING First time ever i think my butt has fit on a bucket. LOL It didn't hurt like it always has to sit there for any amount of time and I used the bucket for a chair. I just sat there and soaked it up at how different it was to be able to sit on a odd object and have my butt fit on that object comfortably.

Silly I know, but It's the little things I'm most grateful for!

And apparently my ass fitting on a 5 gallon bucket was a biggy for me! :)
ha ha

Have a date with my hubby. Last week we had our 6th wedding anniversary and tonight we got to celebrate. :)

gotta go

My Slide Show...

Make an on-line slide show at www.OneTrueMedia.com

Not to copy my friend Amber (http://workingongfreedom.blogspot.com/) but I too created a slide show of many years of pictures. Amber found this cool web site that is free. For a free program it is way cool. So here is my slide show and be sure to check out Amber's amazing weight loss slide show too! She is amazing and has became my friend through the internet. I have some really cool friends here I look forward to reading about and look forward to hearing from them. Thanks guys!

Happy Mothers Day friends. I hope your family spoils you all day!

And Happy Birthday Michelle! (http://michelle-journey.blogspot.com/)

Susy's tired...

Phew... back to work... And a different kind of work it is compared to what I was doing before. Loved it, good day, busy, lots of lifting and moving and no time to be bored. I must of made 100 trips to the shed for tables, weights, canopy's, chairs, signs, you get it... This job will take 5 pounds off me in no time, so it's all good! After setting up barricades, signs all over town, and tents, chairs, I run the booth for Visa/Master Card during market hours. So if you don't have enough cash when you come to the farmers market you can use your credit card and exchanged for tokens to spend in the market. After the market is over I tear it all down again and load up about 15 signs all over town. Back to the shed everything goes. PHEW I do know I need to get to the dept. store and get a real rain coat that is warm. It was drizzly out today and after the 3rd hour it sucked. And that was a good day at the ocean. A lot of times if it's raining at all, it's raining sideways there on the ocean and windy to boot. So before I freeze my butt off from being soaking wet I need to go get a REAL jacket. Where do you find a warm jacket in spring? Hm I came home and showered again cause I was so cold. I'm better now and sipping on coffee as I've been up since 4am and I need a little pick me up. Saturday nights is no fun around here as Saturday mornings from now to fall we start very early and we end up in bed early.

nighty night...

so that's it
PHEW

I am happy for the change and I'll get strong from this job. double bonus! It was a good day!

It's all good...

A couple of weeks ago the president of the local farmers market called here looking for me and talked to Derrel about me working for them. They needed to hire an assistant to the manager for the market this year. A month back or so we were at the first market meeting on a Saturday and they were talking about the budget and a new hire. I started listening really hard. On the way out I asked Karen (manager) where I would apply for that job? I was interested and thought it would be great. It is final- I got the job, the pee test is done, paper work is done and I start Saturday at 6:30am. I'm so excited. I will be doing a bit of everything from putting out the signage, parking vendors, debit machine, customer service what ever Karen finds for me to run around and do. The market is full of the same folks each week and most everyone is really friendly. It will be great and I'm excited to get paid and be busy while I'm there anyway. So Derrel and Jonathan will sell for D & S Greenhouses. We have cedar planter, benches, plant caddy's, wagons, flowers, shrubs and I'll make a few bucks too while freezing my ass off. I hate being cold. That's the only thing that sucks. The market is on the beach and there are lots of times the beach is windy and cold. I have to buy a "real" coat that is water proof and warm and not for fashion. Cause I'm a "weenie" when it comes to being cold. And since nothing fits but one coat I need a new waterproof/rain gear coat. So I'm pretty thrilled about all that good news.

1st Farmers Market starts this Saturday for us. Mothers days was a great day for us last year with his cedar planter and flowers. Wish us luck. I'll take some fun pics to share.

Oh yeah... I got unemployment for harassment from my old job. I was very please about that. They did me so so so wrong. I was really just trying to do the right thing and I paid for it. I still have a case pending with the Oregon Labor Board. Which will take sometime but I am following through with the harassment case if there is one to be found. State of Oregon seems to think I do. Time will tell. I have let go of it and getting my unemployment helped. I had a real hard time not being angry. It ate me up and was on my mind a lot. Too much and I knew I had to just let it go and trust I did the correct thing. And I'm glad the state agreed with me.

But I found an assistant mangers job anyway so it all worked out.

EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON!

PT update...

Keeping this short. For me that will be a first. I seem to have some of the longest blogs when I read back. LOL

I wanted to blog about my physical therapy appointment now that 5 weeks or so has passed. I've been going M/W/F to PT now for about 5ish weeks. It is coming along really slow but he is stretching me out as each week passes. He told me even today that all my muscles in the hip area or so so so tight. He can't believe it (I can- I've had to live with the pain). So he put these pulsing pads on the tight muscles and heats them for 30 minutes. Then him and his "helper" stretch the shit out of me for 10-12 minutes. Forcefully but slowly if that makes sense. When he is done I am always cold. I get into my car I turn on the heater for a minute. I asked him about that and he said it was from pain. He told me "what were doing here to you is hard and your tolerating it well but I'm sure it's uncomfortable and painful". So I shake for 4-5 minutes after therapy. It passes and with each visit and stretching at home on my own I can now touch my left toe! Yeah! I can almost cross my left leg on to my right leg. I could not do that at all a few weeks ago. Still a struggle but it's coming back slowly. My muscles are so tight from years of compensating and eating the pain. I was stubborn! Fact is it is going to take awhile even after I'm done with PT as this took years for these muscles to get this tight. I am noticing that going up steps are easier on my left side, I can touch my left toe (barley), and while in the pool I notice certain moves are becoming easier or they feel different. I am trying really really hard to work on my posture. Shoulders back and up straight. It's tough! I feel awkward holding my shoulders back so far but know when I stand up straight I don't look awkward- I just feel awkward for now. I also got these new walking shoes in Pasadena called MBT (http://www.swissmasaius.com/) The shoes improve your posture and distributes your weight when your walking. Your foot rolls in them and they feel great. I was sold when I tried some on. I love them. Pricey, but my whole body needs "make over" and this will help me with my goal of getting healthy. All of me healthy, not just my weight...

so that's my short story... LOL

Healthy Choice has found a way to make you NEED to buy Healthy Choice

this came to my inbox today. don't know if it's a real ad or not, but thought it was funny!