Blue Monday, blue week...

Thank you for all the nice, kind words a lot of you have had for me this week. I got messages on Facebook, Yahoo, and here on my blog. My friend Jen saw my "sad" face on Facebook and stopped bye my work on Monday to check on me. That was sweet of her I thought. And the kind words were nice, so thanks! Monday was a rough day around here and even Tuesday was hard for all of us. Animals have such a gift and they are very missed, so we all have that in common. I got off work on Monday and just cried all the way home because I knew when I got home my Blue Dog would not be at my car to greet me. Came home and went right to bed to hide and be sad with my hubby. I know in my head it was 100% the right thing to do. I cry for myself and missing her in my life. She will be missed here in our home and farm.

I found out Monday my friend from high school hubby has to have open heart surgery (triple bypass). Gosh I feel so bad for them. Makes my little problems feel small. It reminded me of when I finally decided to have gastric bypass. Halloween of 2006 my hubby had stints put into his heart and thank god did not need open heart surgery. On that day I knew I was going to follow through on this journey for myself and have gastric bypass. I didn't know how or where but I knew I was going to take care of myself and that I was going to do this. I had to or I my weight and being obese was going to catch up with me. I was always just scared and that's what stopped me before to really following through. But being there watching the hospital and my hubby was more scarier to me. I've watched to many loved ones have health problems with cancer, heart problems and such. I did not want my weight to take over my life over slowly but surly if I can help it. And oh boy, are things different weighing 175 vs. 300. WOW

Almost been one year

28 days left

weight 175.4

115.6 pounds gone

6.4 pounds left to go until I get to that goal of 169 (that "i can't believe I'll ever weigh 169" goal). So that goal for me 11 months ago was 169.

* 16.4 till I'm NORMAL (and that's the real goal)

Wow, Having fun!