So the reason I'm blogging today is: I thought I should be honest and say I miss eating and snacking at the movies. The mindless eating and snacking in the dark. I'm ver
y careful when I do go to the movies to portion and limit what I eat and how much. But I never seem to get it right. But yesterday sitting there at the movies I'm listening to everyone and the rattle of candy wrappers for 2+ hours straight drove me crazy. I found myself talking to myself in my mind. I'm thinking- "Susy-don't think about food/candy for 10 min and you can have another bite or maybe you'll forget about it all together". Trying to limit myself with 2 hand fulls of Hot Tamales bothered me yesterday. I know if I eat much more I'll feel sick. Not that I was hungry. In my past we got popcorn and our own WHOLE box of candy. I can't do that anymore or I PAY with dumping of some sort. But I have to be honest and say yesterday I found myself feeling bad for myself for a second. Silly huh?? Does anyone else ever crave pigging out sometimes? Most days I don't. Yesterday I did. But today I feel full and kind of yucky, cause I'm not used to eating crap. So I did only have 2 small hand fulls of Hot Tamales, one bite size Butterfinger and a bit of popcorn popped from home. Still too much food in a short period of time for my body. When we got home I was shaky and then sweaty and had to lay down. I layed down at 7pm and fell asleep. Next thing I know it's 10pm and my hunny said "nap time is over, now it's bed time". Damn candies! Don't get me wrong- yesterday I found myself thinking about food and I didn't like it. Most days are not like that for me anymore. But it's still in bedded in my mind from habit, or bad habits that I thought I should be honest. But fact is I would trade every piece of candy to stay thin. But again the fact is it still bothers me from tim
e to time. I should of took my apples to the movies and D should of not bought those Hot Tamales for me. I said "i didn't want anything". Being nice he bought me one of my favorites. Blah! And I ate them and they bit me in the ass for doing so.
y careful when I do go to the movies to portion and limit what I eat and how much. But I never seem to get it right. But yesterday sitting there at the movies I'm listening to everyone and the rattle of candy wrappers for 2+ hours straight drove me crazy. I found myself talking to myself in my mind. I'm thinking- "Susy-don't think about food/candy for 10 min and you can have another bite or maybe you'll forget about it all together". Trying to limit myself with 2 hand fulls of Hot Tamales bothered me yesterday. I know if I eat much more I'll feel sick. Not that I was hungry. In my past we got popcorn and our own WHOLE box of candy. I can't do that anymore or I PAY with dumping of some sort. But I have to be honest and say yesterday I found myself feeling bad for myself for a second. Silly huh?? Does anyone else ever crave pigging out sometimes? Most days I don't. Yesterday I did. But today I feel full and kind of yucky, cause I'm not used to eating crap. So I did only have 2 small hand fulls of Hot Tamales, one bite size Butterfinger and a bit of popcorn popped from home. Still too much food in a short period of time for my body. When we got home I was shaky and then sweaty and had to lay down. I layed down at 7pm and fell asleep. Next thing I know it's 10pm and my hunny said "nap time is over, now it's bed time". Damn candies! Don't get me wrong- yesterday I found myself thinking about food and I didn't like it. Most days are not like that for me anymore. But it's still in bedded in my mind from habit, or bad habits that I thought I should be honest. But fact is I would trade every piece of candy to stay thin. But again the fact is it still bothers me from tim
e to time. I should of took my apples to the movies and D should of not bought those Hot Tamales for me. I said "i didn't want anything". Being nice he bought me one of my favorites. Blah! And I ate them and they bit me in the ass for doing so. NOTHING TASTES AS GOOD AS THIN FEELS!
i understand that now after losing the weight.
Does anyone else ever miss eating things you loved or am I the only crazy one? I think not- spill it-share it-be honest.
Oh yeah- the extra candies- they went into trash this morning!
4 comments:
I'm really afraid to eat candies since my RNY. On Mothers Day I went to the movies alone. Talk about rough. I really REALLY wanted to try some popcorn or get some of those little sprinkle covered chocolates... or both. I did neither. At first it drove me bonkers, then as I got into the movie, I didn't even notice. Oddly, it was AFTERWARDS when I felt deprived.
It is a total mindset. Sometimes at the movies I totally do the candy and popcorn and pay so dearly afterward!! I say lesson learned and move along....I am glad you enjoyed the movie!
I had RNY in February, so I'm not very far out. Right after the surgery, I was deeply mourning food. I kept seeing all the commercials with food and thinking about how I could never have anything again! I've been fortunate (or not) that I'm not a dumper. So, that makes it especially challenging. I love your blog. You really inspire me! Keep up the good work!
Fab Kate- Yeah...good to know I'm not the only one. Most days are not like that anymore for me but when I was bothered by it I thought I should be honest with myself.
Michelle- You are so correct. It's a mindset. I get it and most days I do great! My best friend Michelle reminds me all the time about it being a mindset. She drills into my head till I heard her. She has been a great support in my life. Moved along-new day! And I'll remember the apples when I go to the movies again!DUH
Anomymous- LOL Thanks for the kind words. Sometimes I think I should stop blogging and I'm running out of things to say. But this crazy ride is worth talking about. Good luck to you! And again thanks for sharing and being honest. Helps knowing were not in this world all alone sometimes. :)
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