Crazy Scale...

I weighed in today at 144.6. Very nice! I try very hard to maintain my current weight. I don't obsess over it but I am very conscious of the food i eat. I decide what goes into my mouth. If the cookie/sweets are in my house I will still pick that cookie. The Dr. did not remove the "cookie bone"- (darn it). So for that reason I keep apples, oranges, grapes, yogurt, cottage cheese in my fridge all the time if I can-not the cookies & sweets. I've learned this...I see this, so I don't keep it in my face on a everyday basis. I will still pick at candy and sweets off and on through out the day if in front of me. Cookies/sweets make the butt big! I'm human- I want the yummy things in life, it just has to be once in awhile for the next 40 years-no biggy. But more importantly I want to maintain what I was blessed with for myself. I want to be true to myself and honest this time. The top of this month I have maintained my current weight of 145-149ish for one year! Yeah me! One year ago I was finding myself for the first time in the "normal" weight range for my height. I was thrilled-I am thrilled. No longer was I morbidly obese, obese, not over weight...i was just right! So having my first year after my all time low of 144 under my belt with no gains, I feel good about. But I understand this is my life long battle. One year down-many more to go! This past year I've had no big ups on the scale, no big drops, just staying steady. And that pleases me. I can do this! It's so clear what I have to continue to do for the rest of my life. And that is TAKE CARE OF ME and do what I should of done all those years ago. But I needed help. I believe that and I'm not ashamed to admit it. It's about moderation, picking healthy foods a good part of the time, and keep moving. Surgery gave me the tool I needed to help me in my journey. It's not perfect and at times your days can be controlled by the food you just ate because it's not agreeing with you. I have learned what works for my body and I've learned to listen to it. I also love the fact that something now reminds me "you better stop Susy" or you just might pay for that. And I hate feeling sick because of food, so I don't push those limits anymore. And having the stomach stapled also controls now how much I can take in. I now allow myself to do the up, down scale thing...but if that scale even gets close to 151 I make some changes and stop it right there. I don't look away! I will never tell myself my jeans are getting tight from the dryer again. I will not let myself down. Food is different now, it makes me feel good. If I pick crappy food-I feel crappy. If I pick apples, protein and such my body runs and feels better. You are what you eat...I feel it now.


Here's to the healthy me! And keep reading cause I'm going to keep blogging even now that I'm done losing 150 pounds and now I've maintained that loss for one year...- I still have things to say. You all keep me honest with myself and accountable! So thanks for being my Internet buddies! You have made my journey fun and I've learned something from all of you. Were all the same...helps to share and learn from each other.

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