e rented one night @ a condo right on the ocean with a fireplace and a jet tub. Jonathan got home from school, took him to a friends house for the night, and had a very nice evening by the ocean. That was a nice surprise and fun to watch the storm by the ocean and the waves crashing off the rocks.The next morning after we got around we went to lunch. Had a bit to much to drink and some real food sounded good. Well... I had a garden burger (left 1/2 of the bun off my burger) and a few bites of some salad. That meal was the first time since surgery I felt like I over ate. I should not of finished that last few bites of my garden burger. Sad part is I knew it in my head. I remember thinking I was full, but NO I didn't listen to my stomach or head and look what it got me. SICK That's what got me fat to begin with. SHIT By the time we were heading out of town back to home I told Derrel "to pull over". I lost part of my lunch. I did it to my self I guess, and or the liquor that was also in my tummy combo???????? I was just blah. Came home layed down for 1/2 hour and then we had basketball tournaments most of Saturday.
For some reason I've been hungry a lot more often most of this week. So I ask myself what am I doing different? I think I know the answer to that question??? I felt several times this week I am hungry and can't wait to eat. Just felt hungry more often. Different for me and strange. Guess the garden burger got me full for sure. I did pretty well over the holiday but you know the lingering candy left in the house that was in my stocking, I've had some each night. By all means I have not ate the same amounts of candy, but this past 2 weeks I've had a hand full of candy each night (hot tamales, cherry sours and shit). And that little extra sugar keeps me from losing. I want to be at my first goal of 169 pounds by Feb. 21st which is one year since WLS for me. Today's weight is 181.4. Minus 169 pounds (goal by feb. 21 2008) = 12.4 more pounds to go and and 5 weeks to go until I want to get to that first goal. So I don't go to work this week 2 times until 1pm so I am going to go swimming and get that back into gear. We went grocery shopping yesterday and got some healthy foods for us. I've been kind of stuck at 180 pounds for a few weeks. Makes me wonder if I am done losing weight or just stuck. I knew my body was going to make me work hard for these last 20 pounds. I am happy that most foods agree with me and I never feel sick from eating, but I never since surgery over ate until yesterday. To be healthy is why I did this and eating candy is not healthy with or without WLS. I feel better when I eat and make good decisions with my food.
So that's my week... and back to work I go... Get my ass back to the pool and throw that candy in the garbage.
I will win this battle!
1 comment:
WOW, what a great romantic night!
I'll have to say one thing on the overeating, it's bound to happen now and again, your healing and your hunger is returning, it's an evil battle of good and evil I tell you. You know what to do, listen to your body, I know I've done or maybe not done that more than one time, it's evil!!!
Throw out the candy girl, it's going to keep your body craving, and when there is nothing to satisfy it, your body will readapt to the way you've been doing it and all will be well....You are doing great and yes the last 20lb are a killer...I was stuck forever!!
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