I woke up this morning and the scale said 202.2. Grr back up, what's
that all about? I started crying. Why am I crying? It hurt my feels really bad. At least for me, that's when the negative talk starts. "This is it, I won't lose anymore", and all the other things we tell ourselves at times. It's not good for me to think those thoughts. I really feel like this surgery has assisted me so much, but I am also working hard to make this happen for myself. I have a hard time seeing what I've accomplished and can't see the future on days like today. So I decided to blog about my thoughts and feelings this morning. I feel sad, let down, mad and I know I need to put all that energy into the positive and not dwell. Some days are easier than others. I'm going to try to wipe away the tears this morning and I'm getting my ass off the couch and going swimming. That's the only way to make this happen for myself. But Susy scale is not moving and it's trying to drive me crazy. I knew this would happen as I've read many others story's, but it made me cry this morning and that feels silly at times too. This is why I keep say having WLS is not the easy way out. A wonderful tool, but easy NO.
2 comments:
Oh Darn It, Girl.. I am sorry about the small gain.. But remember it happens to all of us.. It doesnt mean you will not be thin I promise. You keep doing what you are doing. You will get there when your body is ready to give up the weight. I promise. Go easy on youself.
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First of all Suz hun happy birthday (belated) so glad you had a great one (didnt know our birthdays were this month together lol) Second babe like you tell me dont give up keep going you have gotten down so much I am so proud and glad for you. I luv ya hun and I know you can do it. You are such a great friend and I am so glad I have you to help me through this and if you need a shoulder or ear you know I am here hun. Take care of you babe.
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