Jessica (derrel's niece) came down for a visit from Seattle, WA. This is her newborn Kaleb. This was taken Monday, March 5th 2007I thought I better start writing and get through this day. If anyone ever tells me I took the easy way out, I might just punch them. Today has been kind of a yucky day for me. I just don't feel strong. I had a couple of good days, but overall I don't feel strong. I feel and look tired. Looked @ myself in the mirror today and I have circles under my eyes, there black. This has kicked my butt, and I don't like it. Then I start to wonder "what if this doesn't work either". OK - I know I'm kicking myself. Seems I'm good at that. I talked to Scott today, and he assures me I'M NORMAL... :) Derrel gave me the "pep talk" too. I know all this in the back of my head, sometimes it just gets to me. And today would be one of those days. Got to get back to the facts:
- i am 2 1/2 weeks post-op.
- i am feeling stronger most days.
- i need to drink more water/Gatorade
- i need to keep moving so I will feel stronger
It's hard some days to tell yourself the "good" words when you don't feel good. Derrel and Scott have been there to pick me back up. When someone tells you they play "head games" also, it makes you feel better and things will be better really really soon. I knew this was/is going to be a long year. With the one's I love, I can do this. Thanks everyone for being there for me. My Aunt Loretta has been very concerned for me and wishing me well with lots of support. Scott and Barb, and my step-mom have been great. My best friend Shelly. She has been picking me up with her words. And Derrel... My strength, love, and hugging me all the way. I need it- thanks all! :)
Tomorrow will be a better day...
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First of all, YOU LOOK GREAT! I can see a difference in you already in that picture and it was days ago. Second of all, remember the saying "THIS TOO SHALL PASS"--because it will pass, I promise. And lastly, remember that you have lost the ability to soothe yourself on some level. Its kind of like you had a friend (food) and now you don't. That would make anyone ticked off! Love you and I SO GET IT!
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