Today is Sunday... I'm ready to go home to Oregon. We can leave on Tuesday. I feel better today. When I woke this morning I was sad a bit. I just want to feel like me again. Scott, Barb, Derrel are all reminding me that I am feeling and sounding better. Derrel tells me he can see that I'm getting out of bed better and such. My big break today was I felt good enough to shave my legs in the shower, and 2 days ago it was all I could do to get in the shower and brush my teeth. Scott and Barb have been so good to me, I am thankful for there kindness and love. It has helped a lot! It means a lot to me. I know there busy and they have there lives , and they have been very caring each day calling and talking me through and checking on me.
I have been e mailing one of the other ladies. Her name is Karen and she is from WA. She has been having a hard time just as I have the past few days. It's been nice talking to her and sharing. I don't understand some of the others are getting out and about. I do not have much strength and only feel good sitting up right. I start walking and such I feel very dizzy and weak. I need more salt, I feel dehydrated and fried. I don't have the strength to get out much which makes me sad a bit. I wish I could, but it's been slow to feeling better and better. But each day I do feel somewhat better.
Today we went for a ride down the strip wishing we could get out and about. The casinos are soooooo big here that it seem like to much. I am being good to myself and doing what I can each day. We did play slots today for about a hour. I lost 30 bucks and I'm done, I could of got something cool rather than give it to them. Derrel does enjoy gambling, but I'm not good at it at all. Derrel stays sometimes 2-3 hours and just loses a bit or stays even, but not me. We came back to our hotel for a "bite" of soup. I was able to eat a quarter can of tomato soup and 2 crackers for lunch/dinner. My taste buds are all screwed up. I wonder how long that will last. Nothing tastes good or right at all. I'm so thirsty. Wishing I could chug a pop, orange juice, water anything, but I can't I need to sip my Gatorade. I have been chomping on ice to help, and I am enjoying that.
Were doing laundry now before we head home. This evening we are going to go down to Fremont experience. That is one thing Derrel loves. A LIGHT SHOW... So we are going down to old Vegas for a bit to watch the light show after dark. My hubby has been so good to me. He hated the feeling of not knowing how I was while I was in surgery. I remember that worrying about him. He has been great to me. I'm thankful for that. I am thankful for a lot. I've had a lot of phone calls, people caring, people helping with Jonathan it feels nice. Thankful for my mom and what she has given me. She is gone but still is taking care of me. I sure wish I could share this with my dad. I think, no I know he would be proud of me. I still wish and miss him so much. Not a day goes by I don't wish for him, some days are easier than others. When I had to write my packet to Dr. Rutledge about my life, story and such I wrote about my dad. That was hard for me, and sad for me. Ok I'm starting to tear up. I MISS YOU DAD, wish you were here to talk to, I would give anything to share my adult years and family with him. But I know he would want to know that once again Scott and Barb like always have stepped up for this family again, and that feels good too. OK now the make up I did put on today is gone.......
Anyway.... I know I will forget how I felt these days and the feeling I'm feeling. So that's my point to this blog.... Something to look back on, learn from.
I still want to go home! :)
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