I've wanted to blog the past few days...but I have nothing to talk about. I know...my exciting life. Anyways...times are hard, I've cried and I'm done feeling sorry for myself. Sometimes I get caught up in my emotions and I have to step back and get out of my funk and see things as they really are. Some days are easier than others. Let's just say I needed a good cry. So what...were broke. Aren't we all. Hours at work have been cut back, the job calls less and having to charge bills to get bye just plain stinks. The bills are paid this month and the future is scary for us these days. Sometimes that brings panic and tears. But there are many things I have in my life that are wonderful and I need to be thankful. And when I get clouded like that I have to remember what is good! And life is broke...but good!Last week I was reading Tiffany's page over at http://talktotiff.com/. Tiff has a great blog that keeps you thinking while she is sharing what going on in her mind and life. Last week she wrote a blog on transfer addictions. As we have all heard some WLS patients transfer there addiction to food to something else. Having gastric bypass forces you to break the food addiction. She gave me something to think about, so I commented as she was asking how others felt. So here is my comment to her- I’m thinking shopping. I’ve had to learn that just because if fits does not mean I have to buy it. LOL I do feel this wonderful feeling when I shop or is it just fun now to shop (im not sure). I don’t think I’ve transferred my addiction but I’m thinking on it to learn more about myself. I do know that when I don’t have healthy foods in my house I must get to the store. It’s like I don’t trust myself. I must have good things around me like- banana, yogurt, salad, bell pepper, cukes, apples and such or I find I kind of freak. I don’t keep cookies and crap around our house much. I still want them and it's easier when there not around me. I don’t like it when my food decides what kind of day I’m going to have. I don't eat the whole row of cookies anymore but I still think about the “cookies” in the kitchen if they are there. I don’t over buy my healthy foods as I can’t afford to throw it away. When I look back into the past I can see i’ve done it before. There is a time when I didn’t eat and worked out like a mad woman for hours and hours at a time like a transfer addiction.
You gave me something to think about….. But ya…I’m thinking my need to have or have to have healthy foods in my house to eat. So still food????????????? Maybe so?
You gave me something to think about….. But ya…I’m thinking my need to have or have to have healthy foods in my house to eat. So still food????????????? Maybe so?
You know what Tiff said to me: "Still food…. That’s good….There’s something to be said for loyalty!" And she's right! Loyalty should be my 2nd name. In every part of my life- I am loyal. I am kind, soft hearted, loving and YES LOYAL. I don't think about food like I used to before surgery but I enjoy keeping "good" foods in my reach now. And if the fridge gets low or empty I do feel a bit panicky. I didn't even realize it but she got me thinking. I am also cooking @ home 20x more than I ever have in my life and I'm enjoying it. So I learned something!
So....I ask all of my readers: What do you think? Are you finding or seeing any transfer addictions? Just something to think about!
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There are some tranferring addictions here...I'd have to say I decided to plant a garden outside of yummy veggies,,,this has become a transfer from eating to buying planters, soil and veggie plants. I also like to spend money, but then again, I don't have much , so I have been avoiding that more and more (but I like buying jewelry). I do spend more time cooking at home and reading recipes to make other neat dinners...that is a new behavior I have developed. Hmmm, oh yea, another behavior I developed is going for more walks and bike rides...
I have to say that yes we do transfer our addictions,,but hopefully, we are choosing new behaviors that enhance the old!
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Very well said Lisa...you are correct! We did this to become happier and healthier.
Change has been good! It doesn't always have to be looked at as a bad thing. There can be good tranferring addictions too.
Yes, I have dealt with transfer addictions. Sometime soon I will have to blog about it, because it became a scary part of my life in the fall of 2008...needless to say I've broken the habit but it was hard and I'm not quite still ready to talk about it...
Susy,
Thanks so much for the kind mention. I actually just saw this today. I've been in and out of funeral homes lately, like you wouldn't believe... and haven't been able to indulge in my normal computer time.
I wanted to chime in, though... because after this exchange that we had, you too, made me think. I had said that coffee was my transfer addiction. My mother in law had pointed out that coffee is an appetite suppressant.... I tend to lay off the coffee in the evenings - and that is when I raid the kitchen!!!! I think I might be just as loyal as you..... Its funny, its taken blogging to make me realize that its a food addiction that I have. When I was heavier, I blamed my weight on everything BUT me.... My parents, my grandparents, my sisters? I refused to take ownership of it. Now, I've realized that it was ME who spent years in an unhealthy relationship with food - and I'm to blame. That being said, I'm smart enough to know that I'm the only one who can regulate this behavior.
So.... I THANK YOU - for giving me something to think about!!!
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