The End...

I've been thinking and throwing around the thought of NOT blogging anymore. Do these people really want to read about my day to day life now that I'm done losing weight? My boring life? I mean I can't just keep boasting about how good I feel these days. I thought "should I start a new blog?". Nah This blog lays it on the line and is part of who I am. Why do we stop blogging after the honeymoon is over for us? I find very few blogs after the honeymoon period is over and people just stop talking. Why? Guess were so excited when we watch our self shrink we have to share. But why stop sharing and learning from each other? I know for me I couldn't wait to share I was down another pound or another size. My friends here have given me support, nice words, understanding and acceptance. So to each of you- thank you for being my cyber friend and my support. There is a few of you that I would hate to lose contact with as you have become my friend even though we have never met in person. I've watch many of you shrink, grow inside, learn and become healthier happier people. And there is several I'm still watching shrink to this day.

So why is it people stop blogging after sometime has passed? In my world everything is not PERFECT even after weight loss surgery. There is no reason we still can't talk about it. Share and learn from each other. I feel more control now over my habits but food and somethings are still just the same as before they rearranged my stomach and insides. I still can not have "treats" in my house. I find it easier if there just not around me in my normal day life. They still can nag me to death knowing it's in the house. For instance... last week were at Winco grocery, (bulk foods) so I bought 20-25 of those pumpkin candy corns. Rather than buy a whole bag I can just buy a few. Still my head knew they were in the house and now there gone. So you understand they staple your stomach, re route your intestines but not the head. Years of bad habits and routines and such take time to change. I'm still working on those changes to this day. Who is Susy, who has Susy grown into? And most of all I don't want to let myself down anymore. I know what I have to do. It's really quite clear. I can have foods/snack and such that are not healthy for me. From time to time and in moderation. The fact is I perform and most of all I feel better eating the bland same ol foods I love from day to day. My diet of protein drinks, yogurt, chicken, salad, raw veggies, cottage cheese, tuna, eggs, ham, turkey, apples and such just make me feel the best from day to day. When I eat these foods I don't crash and I don't have bad meal experiences. Give me a cookie-I still want another tomorrow. I'm just better off NOT HAVING THE COOKIE at all. Maybe from time to time but keep the ice cream and cookies out of my reach/house. So sorry family. :) I also like the fact that my surgery controls me. I know I may become sick if I indulge in too much. Surgically enhanced behavior modification- I really believe that statement. It worked for me and I needed help. It didn't make it perfect, but it did put me on the same playing field as others and gave me a fighting chance. I will not let myself down. I'm learning that this is a life long battle. And to live in this body, to be happy and honest for the rest of my days... I have to live with no regrets with anything I could of changed by doing or being better. And not let myself down anymore.

I will keep blogging.....so get used to me being around. My blog keeps me honest and accountable. So this is not the end, this is the middle. I'll find something to write about. I may get boring or post silly things trying to make you laugh but I'm not done blogging about my skinny self. I'm really quite boring. LOL I do know that I am caring, soft hearted, honest, sweet, grouchy, skinny red head you'll ever not meet! :)