I can't believe it's me...

Well puking this week and blogging about it got me a few comments. I know I am not alone in this journey and sharing always helps. It's nice knowing your not all alone in the world and others struggle too. This blog is going to keep me accountable with my actions and my words. This is going to be a life long fight and with the help of many I am going to win this fight. Whether it's from me being honest, blogging, comments, family, friends, friends sharing recipes or a stiff kick in the cyber ass I want to be healthy in this body for many years. My hubby told me this week that "it's all up to me and my actions". I had to honestly tell him "that's what scares me the most hunny". I'm the one in control all along and look where it got me. By not trapping in my feelings good or bad I am trying to change and face my fears. As we speak my son is eating a pop tart for a after school snack......RaLpH, blah earlier in this week curred me from having pop tarts for sometime. It's not that I could not have a bit of something sweet or have that pop tart, it's the fact that I went back into the kitchen for that brownie. Big no no... I knew better, I was eating something I didn't need.

I got a couple of new pictures in mail this week. One is from when we bought our new car from the dealership. I remember being tired and thinking "boy this picture is going to suck". All day at a car lot will do that to you. Anyway, my first thought after seeing it was look how small I am. he he I'm smaller than my husband. (that's a first) I can't believe that's me in the picture. None of this has sunk in yet some days. I need to relax and enjoy my size 6 jeans and let it all sink in. Cause I can't believe it myself and I'm living it. The other photo is from my aunt Loretta's camera from when we visited her in Seattle.

1 year, 6 months, 12 days later. I weigh what I've lost! (i love saying that) For the past 3 months I have maintained my weight. And I'm watching everyday to keep a check on my weight. I'm bouncing around 146 to 149. I got more out of this surgery that I could ever imagine.

*start weight 294
*weight today 148.0
-146 pounds No wonder I don't recognize myself! :)
*size 24 to size 6 pant.
*size 1x to size M and small shirts.

-14 in. off my chest
-19 in. belly button area
-21 in. off my hips

Keep it honest!