This overwhelming feeling comes over me still sometimes. I still feel scared some days that I will wake up and be obese again. I think this is from years and years of failing and always gaining back what I had lost. So it's still in bedded in my mind. I can't go back but still so scared sometimes. There is so much in the life I have not been able to do. I want to be able to walk if I want to take a walk, run if I want to run. Smile and not be ashamed of myself. I want to live life, and I sometimes get scared this will be taken from me again. Just being honest and having one of those days today. So I'm looking towards my friends for a "kick in the ass" or something. I want to face these feelings "head on" rather than push them down and aside. I was up to 161.2 this morning and don't understand why. Eating healthy and eating the right things. It's not about the number, it's about being healthy. Then why does that damn number mean so much???
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THE SCALE IS EVIL!!! I hate that darn thing. I am so guilty of letting it effect my moods, what I eat, how I think and feel about me... blah blah blah! It sucks!!
:hugs: You will keep this weight off Susy! I KNOW IT!! You have done an amazing job and you are making right choices... it will pay off! Don't stress (easier said than done)... YOU ARE SUCCESSFUL THIS TIME!!
Hi Susy,
I am sorry you felt bad this day. The one thing I am afraid of is losing to much and needing a revision....My sister is on weightwatchers and she is at 169 they have her goal as 160 she has been struggling to get to that for a year now...but I think she looks good at where she is. She had dipped down to that one time and looked almost to thin. She looks a little healthier at 169. I think if I get to 180 I will be happy. I just don't want to have to eat to gain weight once I am done with the surgery. I really don't want to pay for a revision...hang in there you looke fine just like you are. But I feel your pain...
Rose Wolfe
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