100 Way Wednesdays...

I started 100 way Wednesdays a few weeks ago on how my life has changed going from obese to healthy. This week I've desided to change it up some and blog about a "to do" list now that my weight is not stopping me anymore. 100 ways Wednesday was started by SignGurl. (http://www.signgurl.blogspot.com/) She asked others to join along. So I did...




This week for 100 Way Wednesday’s I am blogging 10 things I want to do in my future that I have not been able to do because of being so heavy for my whole life. I learned to live and do what I could do while living in an obese body. Sometimes it would make me sad and I tried really hard not to think about my limits for many years. There are so many times I sat aside and didn’t want to. Rather it be from not being able to, embarrassment, being afraid or whatever my weight has stopped me from living life sometimes. I still find I have to push myself even after losing the weight. My head still tells me I can’t because I have told myself that for years. I catch myself avoiding getting on the floor, running, walking cause I’m still afraid I guess. Time to learn and try new things to prove to myself I CAN. I am trying really hard to learn to step out of my box and be a better me for my future.

1. I want to ride a horse someday. I’ve never felt like I could get up on a horse and now I feel I could get up and swing my leg around to get up on a horse.
2. Dance! I’ve never danced. Afraid I’d be noticed. I don’t care if it’s a slow dance or a fast dance; I just want to dance now.
3. Run! I still have this I CAN’T run in my stupid head. I was talking to Barb (http://barbswls.blogspot.com/) about it while I was visiting her. My hubby and son run across the parking lot back to the car each time we leave Wal Mart or the store. I know my hip/ankle problems stop me but the fact is I can. Maybe not a marathon but I could run. Even my son tells me “mom you’ve lost 130 pounds you can run now”.
4. Hike. I remember we did this one short hike to a waterfall we took about 2 years ago. It was a pretty easy hike with a few hills but overall a pretty easy 3 mile hike. That hike 2 years ago kicked my ass. I was sad, crying, and so hurt inside because it hurt so bad to walk on this uneven terrain that I didn’t even kind of enjoy the view or beauty of Oregon. I want to go back to that waterfall and enjoy it with my family again. There are many places to hike here in Oregon and I want to move rather than just see the beauty from my car.
5. Hot Air Balloon. Didn’t really want to share my weight with a stranger so they could judge me. When you go up in a hot air balloon you have to share your weight so they can even the basket out and have the correct weight when going up, up and away. There was time's in my life I didn't know my weight.
6. Disneyland/Traveling. We went in year 2000. But do you know for the last few years in the back of my head I was dreading the talk of another Disneyland vacation. I did not know how I would ever have the strength to walk all those miles. Not only the strength but pain I would have to endure. You can eat Tylenol but the next morning you hurt so bad and you are suffering the 2nd day is even more painful. I knew I would hurt and suffer and was scared I could never stand the heat, miles, or pain. And when you are in a magical place like that you should be having fun with your family not beating yourself up the whole way. I want to plan a vacation around what we all want to do, not around what mom can't do!
7. Wear and dress and feel good about it. Big one. Susy does not wear dresses! Not because I didn’t want to, because I didn’t look good or feel good about myself. The few times I did put on a dress it was because I had too and I hated it the whole time. I tried a few dresses on this past week and am still in search of finding a dress that makes me feel sexy for the FIRST time in my life.
8. Get re married to my wonderful hubby. He loves me now and loved me then. He just wanted me to be happy and not sad anymore and enjoy life. I want to put that new dress on and feel good, sexy and get re married to Derrel! The week we got married in Vegas was one of the best times in my life. We really had a good time with lots of smiles, laughs, and love. But I do remember not being happy with myself. For our wedding I got down to 245 pounds. Ug
9. Buy a bike. I blogged about this when I first started this blog back in 2006. Derrel and Jonathan just had bought new bike and went on a ride without me. My butt would not fit comfortable on a bike seat and I felt too big and uneasy on a bike. So I am buying myself a bike and riding along!
10. Water Ski. Never could get up out of water and up on feet on water ski’s when I was a young girl. I have not tried to water ski since I was 10 or so. I weigh less now so I might just have a chance to learn to water ski now.

This list is small to some but BIG to me. My list seems to be pretty normal things we have all done in our life. Being obese for my entire life these are just some of the things that I have let my weight take from me. No more!

No Regrets!