I got home this evening and checked my e-mail and heard from family services about that little girl that is in foster care that I used to read with. I've been trying to get permission from them for a visit or maybe get back to reading with her like we used to. She was adopted about a year + ago and moved away. Ultimately they sent her back for reasons I don't know or understand. So when I learned she was back in the area she made contact with me by e-mail and was very hopeful we could share sometime together again. She is here all alone as her 3 siblings are still back on the East coast with the adopted family. How sad is that to be back where you started when your sisters got adopted. I felt very sad for her. Well today I heard from them and at this time they told me that it has ultimately been determined that it is not (currently) in her best interest to visit or e-mail me. She is very involved in her treatment and her community at many levels and adding another piece to it at this time would be too much. I understand that this little girl has been through something I don't understand because I don't know the facts. I was just
a volunteer and her reading pal. But this little girl and me became close and bonded years ago. I thought I'd never see her again, but I knew she would never forget me as I knew I would never forget her. It just broke my heart to learn that they don't want me to see or e-mail her right now. She is in treatment and they want her to concentrate on her goals right now. They told me it was nothing personal, it's about her treatment. I understand the facts, but needless to say I cried and wish it didn't have to be this way. She has no one here but a new foster parent and of course her mom that lost custody that she does not get to see. So I know I am one of the people that made a difference in her life and I'll remember that when I get sad. They just forget that people have hearts, but I have to follow the rules. They did tell me that "The team would be willing to take a second look at this later - perhaps in the summer. It may be that developing a goal around renewing an old relationship may be very appropriate later on in her treatment".SO JUST MAYBE SOMEDAY. I just hope she knows I care and miss her and she doesn't feel abandoned by me, cause I don't want it this way! My heart is way bigger than my head. That's me = soft hearted.
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