Just a short blog about my job and more TA DA moments I'm feeling. It was once again time for inventory @ work. It's where we run around the store and count everything 3 times. It's hard work and I'm glad it's over for 3 more months. Why I am writing this blog??? Inventory used to kick my butt. I could hardly walk after a inventory, and was in pain. I used to take several pain relievers to get through inventory. After the end of the day I also could hardly walk from my car without a lot of pain after that shift. Let's just say it kicked my butt. Well I just got done and home from working 1am to 8am non stop running around my store scanning and counting. I can not believe how much better I feel with only 9 months under my belt (surgery) and minus 104 pounds. I'm tired from being up all night but NOTHING like when I weighed 300 pounds. Amazing, truly amazing. The pain I don't feel is worth anything I have to sacrifice for the rest of my life. Pain was one big reason for my decision to have WLS. I was really scared to think if my body hurts like this at 39, how am I going to feel at 50? I would of got heavier and heavier from lack of wanting to move and I knew what my future held. Pain, medical problems, sadness, depression, lack of self worth along with many other ailments. Today I also took a break on the counter. So I lifted myself on to the counter and didn't have to struggle to get up there to sit. Little again to some, but BIG to me once again. My head still tells me I can get myself up onto the counter to sit my butt down, but I can without struggling now, I just popped up there. You don't think about it when your heavy and it's a NORMAL act for you each day. But when you lose the weight you realize how hard it really was for you then. Now I understand how tired my body really was.
Anyway, NO REGRETS for me ever again in my life. I'm happy for the way my body is feeling. I'm will never forget what I'm learning through this journey and how it was for me for many years.
3 comments:
I personally do not remember from long ago what it meant to be normal and do normal things. I find that anything I do now that in my previous state of being I could not, is simply amazing. Kudos to you on inventory and thank god it's over for now!! Enjoy the rest of the day
I remember how it felt. I used to run up the stairs two at a time. Hopping up onto a counter was effortless...now I can't do it at all. That must be a great feeling for you. It's amazing how much energy it takes for a heavy person just to exist...but now you get to really LIVE, not just exist. Plus have plenty of energy for fun. How awesome is that! Congratulations!
Susy,
Each day you are closer to the YOU you have always wanted to be. Congrats, sister. You are a success story!
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