not a good idea...

OK not blogging my thoughts was not a good idea. Crazy idea. Time passes and I've got stuff to share and talk about. So I am not at 199.9 or less yet. But I am down to 203.5. I lost 4+ pounds last week. Everything is going well. I had a great 40th birthday. Derrel and I did get to get away for 26 hours in our timeshare. It was on the ocean and had a big jet tub in the bathroom. Was fun... Other news I think is wonderful and I'm so happy is... For the past several years I've read in a program with kids that need extra reading skills. I've ran the program and just been a volunteer some years. But I've been doing it on my days off for years now. I do this on my days off for a few hours each week. Anyway, there is Saleena. I met her years ago when she was in 3rd grade. She got took out of her home and put into foster care that year. So after some time passed I went to her new school while she was with her foster family. I asked if I could do the reading program at there school and continue on reading with her, even if she was at another school. I was aloud to be her reading pal @ her new school. Saleena and I read together from 3rd grade to 5th grade each week. She and her sisters needed someone they could count on so I was that person. You always remember that person that made a difference in your life and I wanted to be that person to her and her sisters. I started reading with her sisters to that 2nd year. Anyway, last year around school time her and her sisters got adopted and moved to the east coast. I was sad, I cried, she and her sisters had a spot in my heart as I now had got close to all of them. But thought how great they all got adopted together. They left and I thought I would never hear another word. I have tried to contact a few different people and making sure they were ok, but nobody would tell me anything. I got a call yesterday from the family advocate lady Sal. She knew I was attached and cared a lot. She told me she saw Saleena in Newport. WOW, WHAT??? On a sad note it sounds like Saleena has been sent back as the adoption is not working out for her. Her sisters are still back east. I don't know much yet, but I checked my e-mail and there is a letter there from her. I know she will need me again and I can't wait to see her and be someone she can count on again. I'm scared for her and worried, but happy we get to talk again. Her new parents would not let her have contact with anyone. I thought and followed along cause I new the girls needed to move on from there past into there future. Anyway this little girl (now 12) has a big spot in my heart and I can't wait to be part of her life again. :)