Down 4 pounds this week, and things I've learned so far...

All good here... My Saturday weigh in is today. I am down 4 pounds this week. Loving that. I have past the 50 pound mark from my totals from a doctors visit in December of 2006. One more pound and I have reached my 50 pound goal since surgery. As un-patient as I have been in the past few months, I am now feeling like this surgery is going to work for me. I found myself in the past several months feeling like I was going to be the one person this surgery didn't work for. I'm not alone, as I have talked to other friends that battle head games too. Silly head games, but I have thought about it. I'm sure it comes from years of failure. I don't feel like that anymore. I'm sure it won't come easy and I will have to watch and work at it, but I can do this. My eating is going well. Still amazes me how much food it doesn't take to fill me any longer. Still have a hard time sometimes with how much to serve myself on my plate. It's still always too much food. That's ok, I just save it or throw it out. It's just different, and a life long habit of over eating. I have had no trouble with getting sick or trying new foods. I don't do milk as it made me sick 2 times and I don't like throwing up bile, so I will stick to soy milk. I can do cheese, cottage cheese and have no trouble. I like the way bread and rice tastes but I don't like the way it makes me feel to full. I usually just take a bite or two and toss the rest aside. I am still not drinking coffee as that is a big surprise to me. I am functioning and getting through life without coffee... WOW, and I'm amazed. I think about coffee a lot though, but if I have learned to go through life without it I guess that's good, but I still do miss my cup o joe. I can't do sweets/sugar or it goes right through me. If you read my DOTS story from mothers day you know what I'm taking about. I have learned that I need to put low calories and protein into my body and fill my tummy with good things for my weight loss and health. If I eat something sweet or it has to much fat, I just feel plain yucky, drained and need to lie down. I have learned the past few months to use food for fuel now and to feel good, rather than filling another need. Doesn't mean the old habits just fade into the night, because when my wonderful cat Mr. Orange died last week I could not push down that sad feeling with food, and I missed it a bit. But the point is I didn't but I did think about it as a first reaction. Gosh I miss my fat/wonderful cat sooooo much. Strange when I come home and he's not here to love me and say meow.

It feels like something has been lifted off my shoulders and I have control now. Partly because you "can't" over eat, and it doesn't take but a few bites to fill your stomach, which is great.

Well that it for now... happy, happy, joy, joy!!!