My surgery is the first thing I think of when I go to bed and when I wake up in the morning. I know this is going to be life changing, and that's why I think, think, think...
I can't even imagine myself at 160 or size anything else but 24/26. I've never been a "normal" size, not even once in my life. When I see pictures of other MGB patients, I can not even see myself at that size. I'm not scared today, but I still have 4 weeks before my surgery date. I am looking forward to the changes in my life, guess now it will seem like forever till Feb. 21. I am worried about the coffee, and not being part of my life any longer. Funny huh, not worried about the changes in my diet, just the coffee. I am each week cutting down on how much I pour myself so I won't get headaches from going cold turkey. I know in my heart this is the correct decision for me, and not once have a ever looked back or worried if I'm making the right choice. I am... Not to hurt when I walk, not to be taking pills to get through my job and the day will be worth all of it.
My son loves to walk. I won't be the one slowing us down or stopping us from walking because of my pain or my weight someday soon. My hubby and son have bought bikes a few months ago, I will buy mine when my "bum" fits on one, and I can't wait for that day!
I also wonder how my customers @ work will treat me different. When I do have a co-worker and if she is cute, I see how the customers treat her different. What will I tell them? Do I share my story with everyone that comes into my video store and asks me? Or do I keep it short and simple? I have spoke about it to some of my customers already. I work at a small video store and I love seeing my "regular" customers each day or week, and I have got close to a few of them, and them I am sharing my life with today. What do I share with all the others as I lose weight? I'm thinking on that too.
Wow.... A LOT TO THINK ABOUT!
2 comments:
Susy,
People will be different. It will be both fun and strange. But the good thing is, YOU will be different too. Sometimes, the attention will tick you off, other times it will make your day. It is indeed a "wild ride."
But I wonder do I go into my "life" story as people ask? Do I want to share it with everyone whan all I know them as is a customer...? I will have somethings to share and teach. Hmm???
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