Made a new friend...

Today I got a e-mail from another patient that is having surgery on the 21st also. It was nice to hear from someone else that will be there the same day as me. So maybe now I will have another person to share the same time line with and share story's. I wrote her back and hope to hear from her again.

Otherwise, Derrel and Jonathan just went for there first bike ride together since they both got new bikes not to long ago. Jonathan was very excited. I can wait till I go along soon and want to go with them. My "bum" will fit better then too and enjoy the ride way more. :)

Everything is in place, working on finances now. The trip is booked, and just counting now...

till later-

Think, Think, Think...

My surgery is the first thing I think of when I go to bed and when I wake up in the morning. I know this is going to be life changing, and that's why I think, think, think...

I can't even imagine myself at 160 or size anything else but 24/26. I've never been a "normal" size, not even once in my life. When I see pictures of other MGB patients, I can not even see myself at that size. I'm not scared today, but I still have 4 weeks before my surgery date. I am looking forward to the changes in my life, guess now it will seem like forever till Feb. 21. I am worried about the coffee, and not being part of my life any longer. Funny huh, not worried about the changes in my diet, just the coffee. I am each week cutting down on how much I pour myself so I won't get headaches from going cold turkey. I know in my heart this is the correct decision for me, and not once have a ever looked back or worried if I'm making the right choice. I am... Not to hurt when I walk, not to be taking pills to get through my job and the day will be worth all of it.
My son loves to walk. I won't be the one slowing us down or stopping us from walking because of my pain or my weight someday soon. My hubby and son have bought bikes a few months ago, I will buy mine when my "bum" fits on one, and I can't wait for that day!

I also wonder how my customers @ work will treat me different. When I do have a co-worker and if she is cute, I see how the customers treat her different. What will I tell them? Do I share my story with everyone that comes into my video store and asks me? Or do I keep it short and simple? I have spoke about it to some of my customers already. I work at a small video store and I love seeing my "regular" customers each day or week, and I have got close to a few of them, and them I am sharing my life with today. What do I share with all the others as I lose weight? I'm thinking on that too.

Wow.... A LOT TO THINK ABOUT!

Have a surgery date!

About 3 months ago I decided I was going to have weight loss surgery. I researched locally and talked to my doctor. I have decided that the MGB that is done by Dr. Robert Rutledge ( http://clos.net/) is the best surgery for myself. The MGB is a short, simple, successful and inexpensive laparoscopic gastric bypass weight loss surgery. The operation usually takes only 30 min., hospitalization less than 24 hours. It sounded perfect for me and the changes I need to grow old with my family and live in my body without pain. My brother and sister in law have been patients of Dr. Rutledge's in the past and have had great success. I remember when my sister in law Barb told me she was having the MGB, I cried. Not for her, but for myself. She found the strength to follow through what she needed to do for her self. She was taking a stand and following it with courage. "I wish I had her courage"! A year plus later I am and have found the courage to go forward with the changes in my life I need. I read and read. Learned more each day from the web site and the "manual" they direct you to download and print. In October of 2006 I started working on this intense packet Dr. Rutledge makes you learn and pre-pair. The packet took me almost 4 months to pre-pair to mail off to the CLOS and Dr. Rutledge. It was so long and hard at times, but worth every hour I put into it. And believe me I put many hours into my "packet". I was very proud of my story, my family letter, my studies, the whole packet was hard work and made me proud when I mailed it.

I have a surgery date of Feburary 21, 2007. I can't wait for that week and the changes that are going to face me in my future. I have always been "heavy", I've never known anything different. I'm 39 now and I'm scared for how my body will feel @ 49. I want to enjoy my life, not take pills to get through my day. My parents both died in there 50, and I don't want to be sick or even in heaven in my 50's if I don't have to be. At this weight I as asking for many illnesses in my future or even a early death.

Anyway, at this point I'm ready for the changes. I expect to be happy, mad, angry, sad. I'm not scared at all. I have a great husband that loves me for me. I know I can share my feeling and thoughts with him anytime. I am lucky to have him in my life!